Only seen by the father!

I truly don't understand a lot of things.  For example why people are so just unaware of how the things they say, tweet, write, email, blab, etc can really hurt or destroy someones passion.

Don't we realize that half of the things we say think or speak really doesn't matter.  I mean come on its a fact that people retain more of what the see than hear.  So in knowing that the negative almost always out weighs the positive then that means the negative things we say, will be the very things that are remembered.  Wow that is really scary to think about.

I am being lead back to a place where listening to the things of this world is way too much to bear.  We have got to get to a place where we can stand on our own 2 feet and Listen to what God (Not Man) is telling us to do.  Notice I said LISTEN and NOT Speak.

Now what God wants and what we want are most of the time 2 totally different things.  (Usually that is how it is with me).  I am not the best mime, singer, dancer, mother, wife, etc etc but I want to be what God is telling me to be.  I only need to listen to his voice and tune everything else out.  I need to have tunnel vision for Jesus and THAT IS IT.  People will lead you in the wrong direction, but God will always steer you in the right direction.  This is a season where we have to stand a say no matter what anyone else says, I will do what God is telling me to do.  I cant not wait any longer, I cannot linger any longer I must take that step of no going back and enlarge my box so it can be filled even more.  Enlarge our territories, expand our borders and boundaries.  We are only bound by our own chains, we put them on our selves.  Let us break the chains off our selves and step into a new place, a higher place, a more wonderful place.

I realize that I am called to be in the back, never to be seen, always hidden, this has been said many times, (something I already knew, of course) I fight this so much because I am human:)  God is calling me higher, he is calling me above what I am now.  He is calling me to serve, worship, adore, and praise his name, not matter how silly, ridiculous it seems that is what I am suppose to do.

He is the one who gave me life, he created my soul, he died for me.  I may not have this big testimony, done all these great things, but I know that he died for me!! The girl that is called to sit in the corner, never to be seen but by only the father. I am only his, his precious gift, his special prize. That is me.

I don't say that looking for pity, but I say it in encouragement that God calls us to certain places because he knows what is going to expand our horizons, he doesn't want you to always stay in the same place or situation, he wants you to grow with him while you are following his will for your life.

I know how to follow and I know how to lead, but that dosent mean I will always be a leader or a follower, There is a time a season for everything and what u choose to listen to, follow is ultimatley up to you.  But Just know that God is there waiting for you to say Ok Im here and my ears are open to listen!