I will move you, I will guide you!

You might be thinking a trip to Kroger. How can that be a life changing experience. Well let me explain my thoughts on it. First, for me it was a chance for a little quiet time to my self. Yes I am in desperation of little trips that get me to a quiet place where I can think, dwell, pray and even just sit with out a kid jumping on my head or calling my name, etc. I love those things and when I come home I actually love the pitter patter of the little feet running toward me to welcome me home. So yes Mini vacations I like to call them help me a great deal. So on the way to Kroger I was just thinking about the events of the day. I remember people twittering about how much they were blessed and refreshed at church, how such a great day it was for everyone, blah blah as all thoughts started to jumble up in my head. Don't get me wrong I love seeing others blessed beyond measure and seeing God move. I love being a part of it and being able to help that goal get accomplished. But as I start to realize that I myself have gotten to a state where I feel over whelmed, tired, frustrated, etc etc for no reason really at all to say that my spiritual meter is running low. I read the bible, listen to worship music, watch sermons, but it just seems so hard to connect that I feel Like I am no use to anyone and I am just a walking shell. If that Make sense. I feel like I am going 100 miles a minute as if to only soon it will come to a crashing halt when everything gives in. I feel spiritually dry, like I am constantly looking for more and more water but continually thirsting for more and more and more.

I have been reading this book along with devotion time, by John C. Maxwell its about how everyone communicates but few connect. Its really good and actually has helped me to see somethings I need to continually work on for sure. Great Leadership and communications expert.

Even with this I feel like I am still kind of living in a spiritual daze. I love challenges, tasks, having responsibility, & just being where he has me, but in all that I am still not satisfied. I asked my self God did I pray never to be satisfied and to make me want more and more cause this is where I am at right now. I need u like I once knew you. I need you. I love the song by Dc talk form a long time ago that states I am still a man in need of a savior, because that is exactly how I feel. God why am I here, please let me know. So my mind will settle and I can rest in you. Lord help me and keep me and guide me into your arms. I need you I need you I need you to lift me higher. I need you to fill me. What about me? Don't forget I am longing after you. Move me, fill me, rock my socks off!!

All that said and yes I can say a lot, but bear with me. Yeah this ride helped me to clear my head and to also hear his still small voice saying. I lead u here, I got this. Its only a matter of time. (this has been show to me about a year ago a lady spoke to me about a hour glass, that's all she had to say) God's says it only a matter of time and I will make my move. I will move you, I will guide you.

Yes I am still in the state of wanting more, hanging on by a thread, and a very thin line. Even though I am just hanging, I can see its a short rope and he will pull me up the rest of the way:) Keep hanging and he will keep holding and lifting.