Just take his last name!

Today I have been pondering and thinking about many different things, but something has stood out to me that I feel like I need to blog about. I don't know if people actually take the time to read my blog or care that I write one, but I know that there is a reason that I do. I guess that it is in hopes that someone will read it and God will speak something into their lives that they become more passionate and concerned for his name sake. I don't claim to be perfect or have all the answers but when I feel that God says do something I do it because if I dont I fear the reprecusions it will have on my life, so with all that said this what I feel I should blog. Please open your hearts and ask God what he wants to speak to you today or through you today.

If we are suppose to be like Christ because we wear the name christian then why do we continue to do what we please and when we please? I keep hearing the kid song, I am a C-H I am a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N and I have Christ in my heart.... so if we really have him in our heart and we really call our selves a christian and we are suppose to be like Christ then why are we not doing it?

Why do we make fun of others? Why do we say inappropriate things? Why do we act like God isnt watching or listening to our every action and thoughts? Why do we deny him like Peter did, through are continued disobiedience and our lack of respect for his name? Why do we scream we want change but dont make a stand when its time to make that change? Why do we let millions of babies die because we refuse to talk about hot button issues? Why do we only stand when everyone in the world is standing, why dont we sit then? Why do we think that it is only our issues that really matter, when everyone around us is dying on the inside, but we are too caught up in self to see it? Why do we continue in the sin that we were delivered from? Why do we allow movies, tv shows, music, etc with questionable meanings, content, language in to our homes around our children?

I am sure the list can be longer but at this point I feel so sicked, convicted by my own actions that I realize, the fact is we are too scared to be like him, we dont want to be like him or pay the price of being a christian. We are so consumed of selfishness that we dont see or hear anything but what we need,want,feel, etc. I fore one feel that this is the time to run after him with all we have, if it means raising banners to get his attention. I just want to be in the deep end of the river and let him take me where he pleases, cause everything will be alright when I am with him. I think that this is what he is saying to us:

"Wake up out of your deep self induced spiritual sleep. I want YOU, I desire a relationship with YOU. I will keep YOU, I will be the only one for you, It is I who can make the enemy flee with just the mention of my Name. Can't you see it ME, you have been looking for? For I am calling you. I am wanting you to come deeper with me. Accept me, receive me, desire me, long for me, stand for me, I will bless you beyond measure.
Come be my bride, bear my last name, for that is what I desire"

Will you choose to give back to your creator?

Well today I feel like I got to blog about something. In sitting at home anxiously awaiting my husband to call me on the result of his job interview today. I was praying and have been for a while to find him a job that would stretch him and grow him, and that I knew would bring his potential out in him. Well I thought that is was his current job because when he arrived at his current employer 6 months ago, we thought it was a sure God send. Well it was but not that way that we had intended it to be. We thought it was it, after being there for 6 months, he realized that consulting is not for him, unless he worked for him self of course. So he stuck with this co and gave his all, all the while searching for another job, especially in a jobless economy we just figured what is God trying to teach us and where is he trying to bring us to. So in realizing that he was bringing us to a point that we would be able to let the past be the past, and know that sometimes we have to experience things so the grass will be even greener on the other side. I know everything is not going to be great and problems wont go away but God wants us to be thankful for our jobs, for those who do the dirty work, or the job that no one else cares to do.

Well if you read my other posts you know I quite my job I received my last pay check last week and havent had the oppurtunity to give my tithes till last Wed, thoughts always come through my mind and I am like wow I could really use that to pay on this bill or that bill. Or to eat with or to do this with, but then I get to where I am like ok I fear God and if I dont tithe, what will happen. Well I have been saved since I was 6 and I was thought that titheing was very important and that we should fear God because of who he is.

Life can diloute that fear if you let it. But any how I could feel that was fixing to do a mighty work, I could feel it. I didnt want to mess things up so I made sure to drop my last tithe in that basket. It was some dramatic crying or emotion when I gave it, I just put it in and walked away.

Then today, mike went for his interview, and this job that we thought would be a long shot, he was offered it. Didnt think that he would be offered it today but he was, it is with a company that is growing, has a good customer base, even though its based out of etown. It is a job perfect and it is what he wanted to do for a company. A God send to say the least.

So when you are wanting something, waiting, or just needed a change, its always good to remember to be faithful to your creator because you dont want him to delay your destiny just because you chose not to give back to him what is his.

What is his is your time, money, talents, your stuff, who you are is his. He created you, he gave you life, he has a destiny for you. Its all his and he gives and takes away.

I am just sitting watching the MJ memorial service. I guess I realize that we all are going to die one day and the life you are givin is the only life you have to do the right thing.

Who r u living for? Are you living for your self and your needs, your wants, your desires? This is something that is very real to me at this point in my life. Are you going to do something with what God had given you or are you going to please yourself and do what you want to do?

God is more real than people think, because you cant see him right in front of your face, we tend to not fear him. We just do what we think is right..

I have recently quite a job that I had been searching months for, when I counted out the money I was making and then spending on child care, gas, etc, I wasn't making any money, maybe 30 extra every 2 weeks. I realized that I want to be with my kids and that 15 dollars a week wasnt enough to keep me from my kids at this point. I can cut back somewhere and not eat out as much and not spend money I don't have on things I don't need.

I looked at my kids today and I realized my purpose at this point is to be home with them. I almost got emotional, I love my boys and even though staying at home is very difficult for me because I want to work so bad. I have to know that its not my will Lord its yours and you will keep me and guide me and provide for my family. So I have to trust his name and trust that he will guide and protect my family because we are doing the right things.

anyways those are just some thoughts that are going through my mind that I thought would just share, God bless,