So there has been several things going through my mind and this is what is going to come out. I feel that as christians we have to be accountable for every idle word, every idle thing we watch, every idle things we hear, I mean really? Vampires run ramped through holly wood, just saying as every one always says. Just saying is a way to put it out there and just say it. Dont kill the messenger. I mean really? what r we watching, what are we thinking. I am definitely not perfect and not one to point or judge or anything like that, but as for me and My household we will serve the Lord and if that means, not doing certain things or watching certain things, then that is what it is going to take. To strive to be like Jesus and not the world. NOT the world. I refuse to compromise my salvation or anointing or blessing so I can fit in or attract something that is not of God, Really what are we thinking? God never had to use Satan to reach Satanist. He just had to be Him. If we want to be surrounded by people of faith and people of integrity then we need to attract those kind of people. My Jesus is in comparable, there is NOTHing NO One that can COMPARE. If we try and compare something to him then we are way out of line. WAY out of it. Im just saying. Are we willing to walk such a fine line that we compromise our own call, just as Saul did. Are we willing to loose touch with the father and be distracted from what God is calling us to do? Are we willing to be silent in a world that thrives off the weak. Are government is set up to make the Christians disagree with each other so much that they become divided and become useless in the way of controversial issues. If we agree to disagree and become unified then we become one step closer to being heard and to potentially saving millions of babies lives for just one example of what unity can do. What does it cost to become so radical and sold out to Christ that our fellow Christians will mock and make fun of us. I mean really why do we not fear the one who made us from the dust of the earth, Who do we think we are to continue to not listen and do our own thing. God will withdrawal his hand on the anointed and the called if we continue to mock, not listen, and do our own thing. This is serious stuff Christians and if we don't listen up and become real and get down to the basics then we are going to fail miserably and its not going to be pretty. It could even come down to our won destruction and death if we don't get real and become serious in the things of GOD.
Seriously What are we thinking? Im just saying:)
Monday, December 21, 2009
Saturday, November 21, 2009
Awaken!!
Awake at 3 am on a friday night and I need the sleep. Got to be at church in less than a few hours, uggg this has to be God. The more I try to sleep the less I can. He is awaking me he is calling me to pray, fast, and seek his face. I need to seek his face, with out his Guidance and with out his anointing everything will fail. There is a stir, a burden, and plea from with in me that has to be let out.
God only you are the creator, the devil didn't create me, so there for he has no power over me. God I will stand for you, I will not let down, I will pray and seek you in the midst of the dark hour. You are my God. I will not watch, listen, or speak nothing but the things of you. You are my help, you are my strength, only you.
Your people, oh God, must awake and seek you and listen to what you are saying, these are the last days, these are the last moments in history, and we just live to only please our selves. We go on as if everything is ok when its not, we live with regret, hatred, selfishness, unforgiveness, and except God to still have the reign in our lives. Which he cant because we have taken the power away from him by not giving our all to him. We including every preacher, every christian, every person, no one is exempt from his word and his truth.
Divided we cannot and will not move forward, we have to come against our own flesh and feelings and allow God to reign in our lives and in our house. We must not watch things that defile his name, we must be a holy people, or strive to be that, strive to take every little hindrance out of our lives. We must be accountable in these last days because life is but a vapor and we are accountable to him. I am awakened to pray that we don't miss the opportunity to reach the lost and dying world because we are so focused on pleasing our selves and not dealing with our own hearts that we forget how big our God is and that he sent his ONLY son to die for our sins that we might have life, We are not owed salvation we fall short of the glory of God by leaps and bounds but it is by his grace that we are accepted by him, We should extend that to those we hate, to those we don't speak to, to those who wont talk to, I mean these are the last days people and we are just sitting around and laying on the couch and expecting God to be there for us, He owes you nothing but He GIVEs you forgiveness and love anyways.
Awaken and know that he is with your every thought, every decision, and sees that dark place in your heart that you hide. He see you and hears you. Awaken oh sleeping hearts, bring back your passion for the lost, bring back your church of Christians who fear you and seek to see your glorious face. Awaken!!!!!! Before its too late and histroy is written and there is not more to write! AWAKEN!!!!!!!!!!
God only you are the creator, the devil didn't create me, so there for he has no power over me. God I will stand for you, I will not let down, I will pray and seek you in the midst of the dark hour. You are my God. I will not watch, listen, or speak nothing but the things of you. You are my help, you are my strength, only you.
Your people, oh God, must awake and seek you and listen to what you are saying, these are the last days, these are the last moments in history, and we just live to only please our selves. We go on as if everything is ok when its not, we live with regret, hatred, selfishness, unforgiveness, and except God to still have the reign in our lives. Which he cant because we have taken the power away from him by not giving our all to him. We including every preacher, every christian, every person, no one is exempt from his word and his truth.
Divided we cannot and will not move forward, we have to come against our own flesh and feelings and allow God to reign in our lives and in our house. We must not watch things that defile his name, we must be a holy people, or strive to be that, strive to take every little hindrance out of our lives. We must be accountable in these last days because life is but a vapor and we are accountable to him. I am awakened to pray that we don't miss the opportunity to reach the lost and dying world because we are so focused on pleasing our selves and not dealing with our own hearts that we forget how big our God is and that he sent his ONLY son to die for our sins that we might have life, We are not owed salvation we fall short of the glory of God by leaps and bounds but it is by his grace that we are accepted by him, We should extend that to those we hate, to those we don't speak to, to those who wont talk to, I mean these are the last days people and we are just sitting around and laying on the couch and expecting God to be there for us, He owes you nothing but He GIVEs you forgiveness and love anyways.
Awaken and know that he is with your every thought, every decision, and sees that dark place in your heart that you hide. He see you and hears you. Awaken oh sleeping hearts, bring back your passion for the lost, bring back your church of Christians who fear you and seek to see your glorious face. Awaken!!!!!! Before its too late and histroy is written and there is not more to write! AWAKEN!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, November 5, 2009
What is your Hinderance?
Its time that we wake up out of our spiritual slumber as I have mentioned before in a blog, and see what God is telling us. He is wanting us to clean our hearts from everything malice thing that isn't from him. He wants us to know that we only need him to survive. Everything else will pass away but our eternities are eternal and I want to take everyone I possible can with me.
He is wanting us to open our hearts and say clean me oh God so that I can be used by you. He wants us to know that we have to put and take every hindrance out of our way and clean it up, so we can be the most effective we can be.
We constantly struggle with our finances, attitudes, situations, friends, etc etc the list can go on and on. He is saying don't you know that I am here with you. SEEK my face first and I will SUPPLY all your needs. We tend to forget who our supplier is. Yes we have to do the work and not be lazy but we also have to do the work with out complaint or strife in our own hearts. We are not owed anything in life. We owe him. Its about seeking his face on a daily basis and then going and doing or helping his word out. Whether we help an old lady across the street or whether we go and serve at our local church. Its about our motives, we have to do it unto God and remember that we are not to seek mans approval but Gods. It doesn't matter if you don't get recognition or if you are OWED it because of all the great and wonderful things you have accomplished or done. Jesus payed the ultimate price and we think we don't have to give or owe him anything.
Who are we living for? What is your purpose? What are your motives? Where do you want to GO? Are u tired of living in what your living in? Then seek his face and he will guide you, clean out the junk drawers of your heart and get rid of what holds you back. If you cant pay your bills then look at see what is your hindrance, are you bitter, do u have unforgivness, These can keep you from your destiny. Let go and fall into the arms of God, Its ok to be wrong its ok to fail its ok to say I messed up, we have to be broken in order to be fixed and we are truly all not perfect and not totally fixed.
Ask him to search you and find what is your hindrance?
He is wanting us to open our hearts and say clean me oh God so that I can be used by you. He wants us to know that we have to put and take every hindrance out of our way and clean it up, so we can be the most effective we can be.
We constantly struggle with our finances, attitudes, situations, friends, etc etc the list can go on and on. He is saying don't you know that I am here with you. SEEK my face first and I will SUPPLY all your needs. We tend to forget who our supplier is. Yes we have to do the work and not be lazy but we also have to do the work with out complaint or strife in our own hearts. We are not owed anything in life. We owe him. Its about seeking his face on a daily basis and then going and doing or helping his word out. Whether we help an old lady across the street or whether we go and serve at our local church. Its about our motives, we have to do it unto God and remember that we are not to seek mans approval but Gods. It doesn't matter if you don't get recognition or if you are OWED it because of all the great and wonderful things you have accomplished or done. Jesus payed the ultimate price and we think we don't have to give or owe him anything.
Who are we living for? What is your purpose? What are your motives? Where do you want to GO? Are u tired of living in what your living in? Then seek his face and he will guide you, clean out the junk drawers of your heart and get rid of what holds you back. If you cant pay your bills then look at see what is your hindrance, are you bitter, do u have unforgivness, These can keep you from your destiny. Let go and fall into the arms of God, Its ok to be wrong its ok to fail its ok to say I messed up, we have to be broken in order to be fixed and we are truly all not perfect and not totally fixed.
Ask him to search you and find what is your hindrance?
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
Only seen by the father!
I truly don't understand a lot of things. For example why people are so just unaware of how the things they say, tweet, write, email, blab, etc can really hurt or destroy someones passion.
Don't we realize that half of the things we say think or speak really doesn't matter. I mean come on its a fact that people retain more of what the see than hear. So in knowing that the negative almost always out weighs the positive then that means the negative things we say, will be the very things that are remembered. Wow that is really scary to think about.
I am being lead back to a place where listening to the things of this world is way too much to bear. We have got to get to a place where we can stand on our own 2 feet and Listen to what God (Not Man) is telling us to do. Notice I said LISTEN and NOT Speak.
Now what God wants and what we want are most of the time 2 totally different things. (Usually that is how it is with me). I am not the best mime, singer, dancer, mother, wife, etc etc but I want to be what God is telling me to be. I only need to listen to his voice and tune everything else out. I need to have tunnel vision for Jesus and THAT IS IT. People will lead you in the wrong direction, but God will always steer you in the right direction. This is a season where we have to stand a say no matter what anyone else says, I will do what God is telling me to do. I cant not wait any longer, I cannot linger any longer I must take that step of no going back and enlarge my box so it can be filled even more. Enlarge our territories, expand our borders and boundaries. We are only bound by our own chains, we put them on our selves. Let us break the chains off our selves and step into a new place, a higher place, a more wonderful place.
I realize that I am called to be in the back, never to be seen, always hidden, this has been said many times, (something I already knew, of course) I fight this so much because I am human:) God is calling me higher, he is calling me above what I am now. He is calling me to serve, worship, adore, and praise his name, not matter how silly, ridiculous it seems that is what I am suppose to do.
He is the one who gave me life, he created my soul, he died for me. I may not have this big testimony, done all these great things, but I know that he died for me!! The girl that is called to sit in the corner, never to be seen but by only the father. I am only his, his precious gift, his special prize. That is me.
I don't say that looking for pity, but I say it in encouragement that God calls us to certain places because he knows what is going to expand our horizons, he doesn't want you to always stay in the same place or situation, he wants you to grow with him while you are following his will for your life.
I know how to follow and I know how to lead, but that dosent mean I will always be a leader or a follower, There is a time a season for everything and what u choose to listen to, follow is ultimatley up to you. But Just know that God is there waiting for you to say Ok Im here and my ears are open to listen!
Don't we realize that half of the things we say think or speak really doesn't matter. I mean come on its a fact that people retain more of what the see than hear. So in knowing that the negative almost always out weighs the positive then that means the negative things we say, will be the very things that are remembered. Wow that is really scary to think about.I am being lead back to a place where listening to the things of this world is way too much to bear. We have got to get to a place where we can stand on our own 2 feet and Listen to what God (Not Man) is telling us to do. Notice I said LISTEN and NOT Speak.
Now what God wants and what we want are most of the time 2 totally different things. (Usually that is how it is with me). I am not the best mime, singer, dancer, mother, wife, etc etc but I want to be what God is telling me to be. I only need to listen to his voice and tune everything else out. I need to have tunnel vision for Jesus and THAT IS IT. People will lead you in the wrong direction, but God will always steer you in the right direction. This is a season where we have to stand a say no matter what anyone else says, I will do what God is telling me to do. I cant not wait any longer, I cannot linger any longer I must take that step of no going back and enlarge my box so it can be filled even more. Enlarge our territories, expand our borders and boundaries. We are only bound by our own chains, we put them on our selves. Let us break the chains off our selves and step into a new place, a higher place, a more wonderful place.
I realize that I am called to be in the back, never to be seen, always hidden, this has been said many times, (something I already knew, of course) I fight this so much because I am human:) God is calling me higher, he is calling me above what I am now. He is calling me to serve, worship, adore, and praise his name, not matter how silly, ridiculous it seems that is what I am suppose to do.
He is the one who gave me life, he created my soul, he died for me. I may not have this big testimony, done all these great things, but I know that he died for me!! The girl that is called to sit in the corner, never to be seen but by only the father. I am only his, his precious gift, his special prize. That is me.
I don't say that looking for pity, but I say it in encouragement that God calls us to certain places because he knows what is going to expand our horizons, he doesn't want you to always stay in the same place or situation, he wants you to grow with him while you are following his will for your life.
I know how to follow and I know how to lead, but that dosent mean I will always be a leader or a follower, There is a time a season for everything and what u choose to listen to, follow is ultimatley up to you. But Just know that God is there waiting for you to say Ok Im here and my ears are open to listen!
Friday, October 9, 2009
Please land your plane!
In the depths of my mind this is what I have found and this is what I am sure needs to be said even if I am not heard.
"O, people of this world, do u not see that I am here with you, do you not see that I am for you, do you not see that I am right here. Stop running around to and fro looking for me, I am right here. You can have me, all of me. Do you not see me. I am waving you in and you fly right by me. Why do you not see me? I want you to land your plane and let me take hold of what I have planned for you. You are so precious and you are everything I want. Please know I am here and I am waiting for you to come to me. Please see me, I am desperate for you to see me. Please understand that I see the future of the path of self destruction you are taking and I can also see the future of the marvelous path I have for you. Please choose to see me, I will wait for you, I will stand, jump, and shout till I get your attention. I am here."
It just seems today that we are living in a world that continues to ignore God. He is right there for us and we just run here to here this preacher or that one. Or to get a word here or there. But we have the main line to God. We dont need someone to tell us anything that arnt already in us just waiting for confirmations. We dont understand that we can revivals in our own living rooms if we would just press in and seek his face. Yes getting together and having those special times are great but knowing that we have him all the time. We take control and need to stand firm in our faith and know that we have the choice whether to walk in his presence or walk alone. Its our choice. He dosent hide in a closet or in a specific church building he lives if you TRULY let him, he LIVES in us. Quite searching for God and take a moment to stop and say, you are right here in front of me God I see you you are here.
"O, people of this world, do u not see that I am here with you, do you not see that I am for you, do you not see that I am right here. Stop running around to and fro looking for me, I am right here. You can have me, all of me. Do you not see me. I am waving you in and you fly right by me. Why do you not see me? I want you to land your plane and let me take hold of what I have planned for you. You are so precious and you are everything I want. Please know I am here and I am waiting for you to come to me. Please see me, I am desperate for you to see me. Please understand that I see the future of the path of self destruction you are taking and I can also see the future of the marvelous path I have for you. Please choose to see me, I will wait for you, I will stand, jump, and shout till I get your attention. I am here."
It just seems today that we are living in a world that continues to ignore God. He is right there for us and we just run here to here this preacher or that one. Or to get a word here or there. But we have the main line to God. We dont need someone to tell us anything that arnt already in us just waiting for confirmations. We dont understand that we can revivals in our own living rooms if we would just press in and seek his face. Yes getting together and having those special times are great but knowing that we have him all the time. We take control and need to stand firm in our faith and know that we have the choice whether to walk in his presence or walk alone. Its our choice. He dosent hide in a closet or in a specific church building he lives if you TRULY let him, he LIVES in us. Quite searching for God and take a moment to stop and say, you are right here in front of me God I see you you are here.
Thursday, October 1, 2009
So here is goes and watch out!!!
This is going to be one short blog!!!
What you do on this Earth right now, will it ring through out eternity or will it just fade away???
The choices u make matter, they matter!!! God is watching you and he sees what you put before him in your alone time. He sees your heart and he knows your every thoughts.
What do your secret thoughts say about you? What does that deepest most hidden part of your heart say about you?
Are you willing to stand with God and not deny him when things don't go the way U think they should?
Lets stop putting our thoughts into things and let God put his thoughts into them, and see where he will take you!!!!!
Start truly living and stop being a robot to the world. Be different set apart in your thoughts for this is his desire is that you stand firm and ride on the wings of his eagles.!!!
What you do on this Earth right now, will it ring through out eternity or will it just fade away???
The choices u make matter, they matter!!! God is watching you and he sees what you put before him in your alone time. He sees your heart and he knows your every thoughts.
What do your secret thoughts say about you? What does that deepest most hidden part of your heart say about you?
Are you willing to stand with God and not deny him when things don't go the way U think they should?
Lets stop putting our thoughts into things and let God put his thoughts into them, and see where he will take you!!!!!
Start truly living and stop being a robot to the world. Be different set apart in your thoughts for this is his desire is that you stand firm and ride on the wings of his eagles.!!!
Tuesday, September 22, 2009
Choas
Ok so this I have been thinking about for many days now. What to write in my next blog. I have started to write some then I just didnt feel like I should publish them so I would just erase them. I have learned it is best to not write or to speak when you are at a point of dis pare, frustration, anger, etc. because what is sure to follow is something that is not Godly or out of the creators vocab. At this point in my life I dont care what you think of me because I know that serving God is my main purpose before anything else. I just want to do his will.
So many things have happened the last couple months with our church and in my life that its Choas. Thus the title of the blog. It seems like I am mentally, physically, and just plain tired. In that I have to realize that my mind has to be in the right place before anything will get accomplished. I have to continue to persue God and read the bible and continually pray. In not doing those things will I become useless in his kingdom.
I encourage those who are weary in well doing to take a time out for God and to get back to the basics and remember he is our only source of strength.
Those who havent stepped up to help further the kingdom of God, I encourage you to take that step you have been waiting for now. Get up off your couch of complacency and wake up and do he will. Start getting involved somewhere in the church. There are so many places that despiratley need ministers to serve for Example the Nursery needs workers,(had to plug that one in since I am the Nursery Director,lol) Not just in the nursery, the children's ministries, alter teams, cleaning crews, greeters, security, parking, then list goes on and on. There is a NEED for laborers in the house of God, no matter what church you go to they NEED you.
I am not sure why people stand back and watch the world go by BUT I for one want to make sure that when I pass this earth that I have done all that I could to further God's purpose. Not my purpose but his.
I think that we are selfish and we continually ask why doesn't this person say hi to me, or why dont they notice me, or why dosent the church love me: seems like we are the ones with the problem not the church. We are so worried about the tiny spec in someone's eye that we fail to see the big moat or thorn that we have in our own eyes. Meaning we tend to look at everyone faults and not our own, which if we worked on our own faults first then we wouldn't have to worry about looking for any ones elses because we would be too busy with our own.
Why are we so judgmental on everything but our selves, do the rules apply to everyone else but not ourself? Man this stuff is some good stuff.
We must renew our minds all the time in order to be in the will of God. We must understand that we must be willing to accept people for who they are even if they hurt us or offended us. We must realize that life sucks sometimes but its how we handle those moments that shows others what we are made of.
Renew our minds people and get right with the father so we can shine the light of Jesus to this lost and dying world.
So many things have happened the last couple months with our church and in my life that its Choas. Thus the title of the blog. It seems like I am mentally, physically, and just plain tired. In that I have to realize that my mind has to be in the right place before anything will get accomplished. I have to continue to persue God and read the bible and continually pray. In not doing those things will I become useless in his kingdom.
I encourage those who are weary in well doing to take a time out for God and to get back to the basics and remember he is our only source of strength.
Those who havent stepped up to help further the kingdom of God, I encourage you to take that step you have been waiting for now. Get up off your couch of complacency and wake up and do he will. Start getting involved somewhere in the church. There are so many places that despiratley need ministers to serve for Example the Nursery needs workers,(had to plug that one in since I am the Nursery Director,lol) Not just in the nursery, the children's ministries, alter teams, cleaning crews, greeters, security, parking, then list goes on and on. There is a NEED for laborers in the house of God, no matter what church you go to they NEED you.
I am not sure why people stand back and watch the world go by BUT I for one want to make sure that when I pass this earth that I have done all that I could to further God's purpose. Not my purpose but his.
I think that we are selfish and we continually ask why doesn't this person say hi to me, or why dont they notice me, or why dosent the church love me: seems like we are the ones with the problem not the church. We are so worried about the tiny spec in someone's eye that we fail to see the big moat or thorn that we have in our own eyes. Meaning we tend to look at everyone faults and not our own, which if we worked on our own faults first then we wouldn't have to worry about looking for any ones elses because we would be too busy with our own.
Why are we so judgmental on everything but our selves, do the rules apply to everyone else but not ourself? Man this stuff is some good stuff.
We must renew our minds all the time in order to be in the will of God. We must understand that we must be willing to accept people for who they are even if they hurt us or offended us. We must realize that life sucks sometimes but its how we handle those moments that shows others what we are made of.
Renew our minds people and get right with the father so we can shine the light of Jesus to this lost and dying world.
Wednesday, August 26, 2009
Made in his Image, so lets act like it!
ok so this is something that has been on my mind and heart and I feel that someone needs to hear this. Maybe its just for me but Ill share it and be open to receive it if its for you.
So if I feel I need to say something I usually do, so here this goes.
God is calling us to a higher place with him. thats what my last couple of blogs have been kinda centered around. so if God is calling us higher with him and we answer? What about those who don't answer that call but are still calling their self a christian but there is no evidence of change in their life. If they really and truly let God have control over their whole life and heart then you would see changed without people having to point them out. They change would come naturally.
So why is it that I hear people say I go to church or I am a christian but yet when I see them out around town or sometimes even at church I cant tell that they r what they claim to be. They where Jesus's last name like its something of non value. We through his name in the dirt and wonder where r blessing is? We dont love others unconditional but we make conditions on who we love. Evertime we make fun of, or post a pict of, or ignore someone in need, we spit, stomp, and slap Jesus in the face. we r placing those crown of thorns back into his head with every word that is intent to make fun of or laugh at someone else. Dont we see that he God the author of ALL life made EVERYONE in his own image. That means every race, color, nationality, big, medium, small, muslces, no muscles, hair, no hair, home, no home, pretty(by ur standards) non pretty: They are made in his own imgae, did he consult you when he created the earth? Dont think so.
We r distrepecting his name by our everyday actions, thoughts, & the words we speak. How sad this is that many christians dont get it? They dont see that Jesus wants to love them, have a relationship, walk beside them, carry them, and wants us to be used by him. But we cant see that he is right here calling us to a higher place with him higher up the mountain to become beacons to world. If u have ever seen Lord of the rings where they light the beacons and they shine for miles so the next beacon sees that it needs to be lit. WOW I want to be a beacon for his name, so he can be see through the darkest times and give hope to those who need it.
Im not sorry if this offends someone because I think we have all been an offense to Jesus as christians who dont walk the walk. What will it take for us to see before its too late that we need jesus we need his love acceptance and forgiveness every day, NO ONE is perfect but we are all made in HIS Perfect image. So lets choose today to make a change for real, lets choose to reflect the Imgae that we were meant to reflect, HIS! Lets choose to fully give him every area of our life not matter what it is. Let it be for real lord. Let us trully move higher in you. Forsaking everything, looks, money, friends, family, possessions, any hinderance lord, let us give it all to u and surrendor totally to your will before its too late and we come face to face at judgment.
So if I feel I need to say something I usually do, so here this goes.
God is calling us to a higher place with him. thats what my last couple of blogs have been kinda centered around. so if God is calling us higher with him and we answer? What about those who don't answer that call but are still calling their self a christian but there is no evidence of change in their life. If they really and truly let God have control over their whole life and heart then you would see changed without people having to point them out. They change would come naturally.
So why is it that I hear people say I go to church or I am a christian but yet when I see them out around town or sometimes even at church I cant tell that they r what they claim to be. They where Jesus's last name like its something of non value. We through his name in the dirt and wonder where r blessing is? We dont love others unconditional but we make conditions on who we love. Evertime we make fun of, or post a pict of, or ignore someone in need, we spit, stomp, and slap Jesus in the face. we r placing those crown of thorns back into his head with every word that is intent to make fun of or laugh at someone else. Dont we see that he God the author of ALL life made EVERYONE in his own image. That means every race, color, nationality, big, medium, small, muslces, no muscles, hair, no hair, home, no home, pretty(by ur standards) non pretty: They are made in his own imgae, did he consult you when he created the earth? Dont think so.
We r distrepecting his name by our everyday actions, thoughts, & the words we speak. How sad this is that many christians dont get it? They dont see that Jesus wants to love them, have a relationship, walk beside them, carry them, and wants us to be used by him. But we cant see that he is right here calling us to a higher place with him higher up the mountain to become beacons to world. If u have ever seen Lord of the rings where they light the beacons and they shine for miles so the next beacon sees that it needs to be lit. WOW I want to be a beacon for his name, so he can be see through the darkest times and give hope to those who need it.
Im not sorry if this offends someone because I think we have all been an offense to Jesus as christians who dont walk the walk. What will it take for us to see before its too late that we need jesus we need his love acceptance and forgiveness every day, NO ONE is perfect but we are all made in HIS Perfect image. So lets choose today to make a change for real, lets choose to reflect the Imgae that we were meant to reflect, HIS! Lets choose to fully give him every area of our life not matter what it is. Let it be for real lord. Let us trully move higher in you. Forsaking everything, looks, money, friends, family, possessions, any hinderance lord, let us give it all to u and surrendor totally to your will before its too late and we come face to face at judgment.
Tuesday, August 18, 2009
Higher Calling
(Photo by Anna Garcia)Matthew 16:24 "if any one desire to come after me, let him deny himself and take up his cross, and follow me"
"He knows your weaknesses, He wants only your love, wants only the chance to love you!" ~Mother Theresa
The last few days have seemed to just flow together really well. Sunday I got a word from a friend that was confirmation for what my life is suppose to be, or who I am suppose to be. This person would have never know anything about me in that aspect so I know that it was from God.
So one thing that Pastor David has been talking about is that we are atmosphere changers. We choose how the day is going to be no matter the circumstances or situation! We choose!
Then wow danced and I do the big flag in the back. Something happens when you do big flags. Total surrender. Both services were amazing and God moved on many ladies in the group. It was awesome!
Then for practice on Mondays, we had our annual praise and worship set done by Pastor Curtis Bridgeman( This is an awesomely anointed family of God). Wow is all I got to say because everything that he spontaneously sang was exactly the types of things that God has been speaking over me, too me, through me, and showing me.
At one point I wrapped a billow over me and was sitting and I heard God speak to me, just fall back and lay in my arms, I hesitated for a minuite and then I heard him say are you scared that I wont catch you. Just let yourself Go and I will catch you! So I did and it was amazing to just sit in his harms and feel like he was holding you. Awesome to say the least!
Then we proceded to pray with everyone in a circle and Tammy asked for anyone to pray to Just step out and do it, and of course it was quiet but I felt the need to, but as I do that thoughts run through my mind, are people thinking oh not her again, or why does she always step out, why does she go first, but I started to speak and felt God so strong. Then afterwards tammy was praying in tounges really loud and I am almost sure that I heard God say this is what I want you to say and I was like I have to speak again, oh great people will really think I am just trying to take over and steal the show, I know this is what you want to say oh God but really me? I havent interpreted or gave words in quite a long while. so I said ok God Ill speak. So I spoke and it was amazing to be used of God, the words just came to my mouth and it was amazing. He was telling us that he is in the midst of us and that he was calling us and he asked where are you? I have called for you and you are not answering me? Where are you for I am here? It was simply God speaking to someone or all of us asking for us and we werent answering him. Wow! I dont know if anyone needed that or if anyone listened and really understood what God was asking them or even understood it was him that was asking for them, I really dont know, but I know thats what he wanted to say and if no one heard it then they cant say he never asked them or never spoke to them. It was awesome to know that you can be in the presence of God. wow!
All of that to say God is calling us higher, he has been calling us and so many people are not answering. He is in our midst asking for us and persuing us! He wants us to come higher with him so that we can be more effective. Are u not answering his call? He wants you to answer him!
Tuesday, August 11, 2009
I want to go deeper!
When u meet people do they see or feel that Jesus loves them? With out you saying or proclaiming that you are christian?
Do we radiate Jesus where ever we go? Do we think about Jesus in everything we do? Do we resemble him where ever we go and in whatever we do?
In every action we take does it bring glory to his name?
Does ever step we take leave his presence behind? Does the fragrance we let off smell of him?
I want him so much that I go deeper than medocracy, I dont just want him enough to be a little pleased for a short time. I want all of him, I want everything that he will give me and then some. Why do we have to sell our selves short of his glory, why cant we let it rain down on us till we cant take any more of it. I want to be so deep in him that people think I am a crazy idiot! because I am so in love with HIm.
I dont want to be mediocar with him, I want to be extreme in him. why find the middle ground when you can have the higher ground with him. Why only go half way up the mountain when you can go all the way up the mountain and receive his glory as moses did with the 10 commandments, Moses had to cover his face beause the glory of God was so strong on him that the people couldnt look on him. I believe that it was so power ful that people were scared and imature in their walk with christ that they couldnt fathom what had moses been doing.
I want to be deeper and I want to go stronger and I want to get more and more of him and all of him and not be dry any more. I want to be full and so full that I cant speak about things any more but just stand in the silence of his awesome glory.
Do we radiate Jesus where ever we go? Do we think about Jesus in everything we do? Do we resemble him where ever we go and in whatever we do?
In every action we take does it bring glory to his name?
Does ever step we take leave his presence behind? Does the fragrance we let off smell of him?
I want him so much that I go deeper than medocracy, I dont just want him enough to be a little pleased for a short time. I want all of him, I want everything that he will give me and then some. Why do we have to sell our selves short of his glory, why cant we let it rain down on us till we cant take any more of it. I want to be so deep in him that people think I am a crazy idiot! because I am so in love with HIm.
I dont want to be mediocar with him, I want to be extreme in him. why find the middle ground when you can have the higher ground with him. Why only go half way up the mountain when you can go all the way up the mountain and receive his glory as moses did with the 10 commandments, Moses had to cover his face beause the glory of God was so strong on him that the people couldnt look on him. I believe that it was so power ful that people were scared and imature in their walk with christ that they couldnt fathom what had moses been doing.
I want to be deeper and I want to go stronger and I want to get more and more of him and all of him and not be dry any more. I want to be full and so full that I cant speak about things any more but just stand in the silence of his awesome glory.
Friday, August 7, 2009
What does your garden say about you?
What does your garden say about you?
Today I was taking some picts of some Sun flowers that I ventured to grow this year, and believe it for not these sun flowers are just simply amazing. Even though I am scared of the presence of the snake still in yard I still venture out to my garden always aware of my surroundings. Wondering if the snake is some where slithering in the grass awaiting to bite me. I believe that we you are in align with God's word he sends the neastest things our way. Today I was out in the garden and for one I have a stray cat that knows when I am out side and never fails to come and greet me. I feel God sent him as a guardin of the snake, but who knows.
Anyways I went to view my garden that is over ran with weeds, so I think the snake is really in there some where. I have jalpenos, tomatoes, cilantro, carrots, sunflowers, but being that my garden is full of weeds i cant see anything but the sunflowers because of their ability to grow to amazing heights and still stands strong. lots I could say on that, but Ill keep to my main point.
The point is that our life is like a garden, for a season it will flourish if we plant and sow in the spring, then it blossoms with flowers or fruit or vegtables, but if we dont do the work of the planting and sowing then there would be no garden to enjoy, meaning were would our blessing come from if we dont obey and plant,sow, and maintain our gardens. We must do those things inorder to enjoy the beauty of what came out of what worked on in the spring.
Yes then the harvest will come and you will be fulillied knowing the work you did in the spring paid off, that is so like our spiritual life and it amaizes me of how you can plant a seed and then life comes forth, and with feeding and watering and miracle grow you can see an even bigger harvest like never before.
Tuesday, July 21, 2009
Just take his last name!
Today I have been pondering and thinking about many different things, but something has stood out to me that I feel like I need to blog about. I don't know if people actually take the time to read my blog or care that I write one, but I know that there is a reason that I do. I guess that it is in hopes that someone will read it and God will speak something into their lives that they become more passionate and concerned for his name sake. I don't claim to be perfect or have all the answers but when I feel that God says do something I do it because if I dont I fear the reprecusions it will have on my life, so with all that said this what I feel I should blog. Please open your hearts and ask God what he wants to speak to you today or through you today.
If we are suppose to be like Christ because we wear the name christian then why do we continue to do what we please and when we please? I keep hearing the kid song, I am a C-H I am a C-H-R-I-S-T-I-A-N and I have Christ in my heart.... so if we really have him in our heart and we really call our selves a christian and we are suppose to be like Christ then why are we not doing it?
Why do we make fun of others? Why do we say inappropriate things? Why do we act like God isnt watching or listening to our every action and thoughts? Why do we deny him like Peter did, through are continued disobiedience and our lack of respect for his name? Why do we scream we want change but dont make a stand when its time to make that change? Why do we let millions of babies die because we refuse to talk about hot button issues? Why do we only stand when everyone in the world is standing, why dont we sit then? Why do we think that it is only our issues that really matter, when everyone around us is dying on the inside, but we are too caught up in self to see it? Why do we continue in the sin that we were delivered from? Why do we allow movies, tv shows, music, etc with questionable meanings, content, language in to our homes around our children?
I am sure the list can be longer but at this point I feel so sicked, convicted by my own actions that I realize, the fact is we are too scared to be like him, we dont want to be like him or pay the price of being a christian. We are so consumed of selfishness that we dont see or hear anything but what we need,want,feel, etc. I fore one feel that this is the time to run after him with all we have, if it means raising banners to get his attention. I just want to be in the deep end of the river and let him take me where he pleases, cause everything will be alright when I am with him. I think that this is what he is saying to us:
"Wake up out of your deep self induced spiritual sleep. I want YOU, I desire a relationship with YOU. I will keep YOU, I will be the only one for you, It is I who can make the enemy flee with just the mention of my Name. Can't you see it ME, you have been looking for? For I am calling you. I am wanting you to come deeper with me. Accept me, receive me, desire me, long for me, stand for me, I will bless you beyond measure.
Come be my bride, bear my last name, for that is what I desire"
Friday, July 10, 2009
Will you choose to give back to your creator?
Well today I feel like I got to blog about something. In sitting at home anxiously awaiting my husband to call me on the result of his job interview today. I was praying and have been for a while to find him a job that would stretch him and grow him, and that I knew would bring his potential out in him. Well I thought that is was his current job because when he arrived at his current employer 6 months ago, we thought it was a sure God send. Well it was but not that way that we had intended it to be. We thought it was it, after being there for 6 months, he realized that consulting is not for him, unless he worked for him self of course. So he stuck with this co and gave his all, all the while searching for another job, especially in a jobless economy we just figured what is God trying to teach us and where is he trying to bring us to. So in realizing that he was bringing us to a point that we would be able to let the past be the past, and know that sometimes we have to experience things so the grass will be even greener on the other side. I know everything is not going to be great and problems wont go away but God wants us to be thankful for our jobs, for those who do the dirty work, or the job that no one else cares to do.
Well if you read my other posts you know I quite my job I received my last pay check last week and havent had the oppurtunity to give my tithes till last Wed, thoughts always come through my mind and I am like wow I could really use that to pay on this bill or that bill. Or to eat with or to do this with, but then I get to where I am like ok I fear God and if I dont tithe, what will happen. Well I have been saved since I was 6 and I was thought that titheing was very important and that we should fear God because of who he is.
Life can diloute that fear if you let it. But any how I could feel that was fixing to do a mighty work, I could feel it. I didnt want to mess things up so I made sure to drop my last tithe in that basket. It was some dramatic crying or emotion when I gave it, I just put it in and walked away.
Then today, mike went for his interview, and this job that we thought would be a long shot, he was offered it. Didnt think that he would be offered it today but he was, it is with a company that is growing, has a good customer base, even though its based out of etown. It is a job perfect and it is what he wanted to do for a company. A God send to say the least.
So when you are wanting something, waiting, or just needed a change, its always good to remember to be faithful to your creator because you dont want him to delay your destiny just because you chose not to give back to him what is his.
What is his is your time, money, talents, your stuff, who you are is his. He created you, he gave you life, he has a destiny for you. Its all his and he gives and takes away.
Well if you read my other posts you know I quite my job I received my last pay check last week and havent had the oppurtunity to give my tithes till last Wed, thoughts always come through my mind and I am like wow I could really use that to pay on this bill or that bill. Or to eat with or to do this with, but then I get to where I am like ok I fear God and if I dont tithe, what will happen. Well I have been saved since I was 6 and I was thought that titheing was very important and that we should fear God because of who he is.
Life can diloute that fear if you let it. But any how I could feel that was fixing to do a mighty work, I could feel it. I didnt want to mess things up so I made sure to drop my last tithe in that basket. It was some dramatic crying or emotion when I gave it, I just put it in and walked away.
Then today, mike went for his interview, and this job that we thought would be a long shot, he was offered it. Didnt think that he would be offered it today but he was, it is with a company that is growing, has a good customer base, even though its based out of etown. It is a job perfect and it is what he wanted to do for a company. A God send to say the least.
So when you are wanting something, waiting, or just needed a change, its always good to remember to be faithful to your creator because you dont want him to delay your destiny just because you chose not to give back to him what is his.
What is his is your time, money, talents, your stuff, who you are is his. He created you, he gave you life, he has a destiny for you. Its all his and he gives and takes away.
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
I am just sitting watching the MJ memorial service. I guess I realize that we all are going to die one day and the life you are givin is the only life you have to do the right thing.
Who r u living for? Are you living for your self and your needs, your wants, your desires? This is something that is very real to me at this point in my life. Are you going to do something with what God had given you or are you going to please yourself and do what you want to do?
God is more real than people think, because you cant see him right in front of your face, we tend to not fear him. We just do what we think is right..
I have recently quite a job that I had been searching months for, when I counted out the money I was making and then spending on child care, gas, etc, I wasn't making any money, maybe 30 extra every 2 weeks. I realized that I want to be with my kids and that 15 dollars a week wasnt enough to keep me from my kids at this point. I can cut back somewhere and not eat out as much and not spend money I don't have on things I don't need.
I looked at my kids today and I realized my purpose at this point is to be home with them. I almost got emotional, I love my boys and even though staying at home is very difficult for me because I want to work so bad. I have to know that its not my will Lord its yours and you will keep me and guide me and provide for my family. So I have to trust his name and trust that he will guide and protect my family because we are doing the right things.
anyways those are just some thoughts that are going through my mind that I thought would just share, God bless,
Who r u living for? Are you living for your self and your needs, your wants, your desires? This is something that is very real to me at this point in my life. Are you going to do something with what God had given you or are you going to please yourself and do what you want to do?
God is more real than people think, because you cant see him right in front of your face, we tend to not fear him. We just do what we think is right..
I have recently quite a job that I had been searching months for, when I counted out the money I was making and then spending on child care, gas, etc, I wasn't making any money, maybe 30 extra every 2 weeks. I realized that I want to be with my kids and that 15 dollars a week wasnt enough to keep me from my kids at this point. I can cut back somewhere and not eat out as much and not spend money I don't have on things I don't need.
I looked at my kids today and I realized my purpose at this point is to be home with them. I almost got emotional, I love my boys and even though staying at home is very difficult for me because I want to work so bad. I have to know that its not my will Lord its yours and you will keep me and guide me and provide for my family. So I have to trust his name and trust that he will guide and protect my family because we are doing the right things.
anyways those are just some thoughts that are going through my mind that I thought would just share, God bless,
Tuesday, June 30, 2009
Its only been two days of me getting back to being a stay at home and well let me say, hmmmm.
Its going to be harder and we are going to stuggle, i think that is a given in this time of a bad stench in the air of the economy. Oh well life goes on with or with out me so I guess I better go with the flow.
So I know that the enemy will try to steal our joy when we are doing what we are suppose to be doing. Last sat we went to an outreach in the portland area of louisville. Which is an older part of Louisville and is a rough and poverty stricken area. When you drive to those parts of town you immediately feel the opression that the area carries. Its like you drive into a dome where Satan thrives. That make me hate the devil even more. To witness first hand the things that he tries to bring people down with. Wow I could go on and on. Its not my first time in this type of area. When I would go to Mexico, ciudad Juarez we would go to the red light district and actually go into several crack houses and minister, love on, and feed the people that were there. Its neat where God will take you if you just let him. Once I was in a Mexican prision, yeah a white gal in a Mexican prision. All I can say is God moved in a mighty way that Day, I realized my sin and hurts are no different than anyone elses, we are all in need of a savior.
so back to the Portland Outreach, one of my favorite times was holding up signs and trying to gain attention to the people in the area. I like to observe people and one of those people I will never forget. You know we should really try and understand what people go through and where they have been so we can start to understand why they do the things they do. So I saw this lady in the distance and she came walking up and lets say she was wearing short shorts and a shirt that showed some skin. I like to look people in the eye, even if its only for a glance because it does something. I feel like I get a taste of their life and their pain. She was a sad lady, but hard shell on the outside. She came in and got some things, stuffed animals and left, then she walked back down the street and left. A few minuites later a car drove by and she was in the back seat and with 2 men in the front. I saw the blank stare of her face and it saddned me. I have seen a lot of things while working in Mexico and just in general, I pay attention to the afar off and I see things that most would not even notice. People catch my attention and then at that point I know that its a devine appointment from the father, because he is looking after his children to be obedient and to do his word, so people will catch our attention.
Yes people with dress suggestive, people will act crazy when it comes to getting free stuff, people will be rotten, people will dissapoint, but we have to remember what has made them this way and why am I hear at that appointed time.
Be open, dont judge, dont make fun of others, you never know what they have been through and if u went through what they did, you might be where they are.
Have compassion and shine a light in the Dome filled with satans plans, where Jesus is satan will flee:)
Wednesday, June 24, 2009
My life in a nut shell the past couple of months, has felt like a winding roller coaster of emotions and events.
I started a new job working at a very prestigous eye center and I actually really liked this job for the most part. There is always going to be something you dont like about a place. I prayed for this job and asked God to bring me this job, and I got it and I am sure it was God's hand in doing this for me. But as I began to look at what I was actually taking home from this job after paying out child care, gas, food, and other costs I wasnt making any money. The feeling in the pit of my stomach was deep and I thought about this for weeks. Should I stay or should I go went through my mind. After thinking about well did God really intend for me to have this job? or was it something I asked for, that he gave me but wasnt something that I was really suppose to have or need. I think that God gives us what we ask for and then we get it we are like, what in the world am I doing here? Someone else is watching my kids and I missing them and they are missing me. Is this worth it?
I finally decided after praying and meditating to leave my new job. They all understood my postion and seem to be supportive of it. I feel sad knowing that my last official day will be friday if I stay all that day. I definatley will miss the people that I work with, even though I dont know them that well I do feel apart of their lives and like they are a part of my life that I feel I will be missing. I really feel down and my emotional self cant but help to cry.
So in this I have been doing a lot of soul searching and self discovery. I just ponder and continously think about what is my purpose, what am I suppose to do, ahhhh. I dont think that I will ever know exactly or the future but only the now and then I am suppose to trust God with the rest. He has me in his hands and will guide me and provide for me. I have to believe that. That is was I am in a contunial process of learning.
All I want to do is be at his feet, I just want to get into the place of true and intimate worship with him and that I want to live again. I just want to live for him and think about him and worship him. I just want to feel alive and not like I am living in a dead mans shell. I want to be sold out. I want God to move in me. If he uses me to do great things, big or small that is what I want him to do. I want to be molded and stretched into a better person and I want to love others no matter how bad they drive me nutz. I just want to be so passionate about people that I see them as souls that need help rather than people I dont like because of this or that.
My grandma had a stroke and me and my dad drove down to Arkansas an 8 hour trip away and it was on fathers day. We worried about my grandmad and they still dont know the cause and are doing more tests but for now she is all right and getting use to things and trying to be more active. That help me to think that our time on this Earth is short and are we going to make an impact on it or are we just going to sit around and do nothing.
I have to do something, even if I feel a million miles away from you Lord, I will still trust that you are there and I will serve you and I will honor and adore your name.
Be my savior and breath a new life into my soul oh lord, please help me to truly live again.
I started a new job working at a very prestigous eye center and I actually really liked this job for the most part. There is always going to be something you dont like about a place. I prayed for this job and asked God to bring me this job, and I got it and I am sure it was God's hand in doing this for me. But as I began to look at what I was actually taking home from this job after paying out child care, gas, food, and other costs I wasnt making any money. The feeling in the pit of my stomach was deep and I thought about this for weeks. Should I stay or should I go went through my mind. After thinking about well did God really intend for me to have this job? or was it something I asked for, that he gave me but wasnt something that I was really suppose to have or need. I think that God gives us what we ask for and then we get it we are like, what in the world am I doing here? Someone else is watching my kids and I missing them and they are missing me. Is this worth it?
I finally decided after praying and meditating to leave my new job. They all understood my postion and seem to be supportive of it. I feel sad knowing that my last official day will be friday if I stay all that day. I definatley will miss the people that I work with, even though I dont know them that well I do feel apart of their lives and like they are a part of my life that I feel I will be missing. I really feel down and my emotional self cant but help to cry.
So in this I have been doing a lot of soul searching and self discovery. I just ponder and continously think about what is my purpose, what am I suppose to do, ahhhh. I dont think that I will ever know exactly or the future but only the now and then I am suppose to trust God with the rest. He has me in his hands and will guide me and provide for me. I have to believe that. That is was I am in a contunial process of learning.
All I want to do is be at his feet, I just want to get into the place of true and intimate worship with him and that I want to live again. I just want to live for him and think about him and worship him. I just want to feel alive and not like I am living in a dead mans shell. I want to be sold out. I want God to move in me. If he uses me to do great things, big or small that is what I want him to do. I want to be molded and stretched into a better person and I want to love others no matter how bad they drive me nutz. I just want to be so passionate about people that I see them as souls that need help rather than people I dont like because of this or that.
My grandma had a stroke and me and my dad drove down to Arkansas an 8 hour trip away and it was on fathers day. We worried about my grandmad and they still dont know the cause and are doing more tests but for now she is all right and getting use to things and trying to be more active. That help me to think that our time on this Earth is short and are we going to make an impact on it or are we just going to sit around and do nothing.
I have to do something, even if I feel a million miles away from you Lord, I will still trust that you are there and I will serve you and I will honor and adore your name.
Be my savior and breath a new life into my soul oh lord, please help me to truly live again.
Sunday, May 24, 2009
I see a lot of dirty windows:)
How clean is your glass?
So you know the glass windows and doors you seen at old walmarts. They usually have outside set and an inside set of windows. I dont claim to be a pro at cleaning as a matter of fact I hate cleaning windows. But when the time comes that I need to be a window washer that is what I try to be. It may not get the cleanest or be the best but its my best. So anyways there are so many topics that I could touch on. but one quick note is that there are people that are sold out to their church and to Jesus and then they are some that hold back and dont sell totally out.
One of the window washers stated, Jesus and this church have done so much for me, how can I not give back. It keeps us focused on him and we don't get distracted. that set with me as I began to take a look at the windows. I began to see through the glass and realize that this is going to be a big task. I realized that the inside of the windows would need clean and then the inside set of windows would need a cleaning. You cant just clean on set and forget about the other. When you do something you got to get in there and do it big.
I began to see all the people that have passed through these windows when it was wal-mart. I started to feel the pain, sorrow, sadness, struggles, etc of all the people that have walked through these doors. Then I began to think about those that are going to walk through these doors and find what they are looking for. It set a spark in me, I knew that this is my church and that I am going to be a part of a huge life changing church. The walmart customers don't know it but God has strategically placed this church in the heart of an area that is going to have the potential to reach even more than ever thought possible. I mean come on everyone in this area knows about this Walmart. When its God leading its going to happen. No matter what anyone person might say, when God decides it dosent matter what they think.
I began to realize that the windows are so important, if you don't clean them they get dirt and grime that keeps getting build up. Its like Christians who don't jump in and sell out to Jesus, they walk around with dirty windows. Jesus cant shine through them because their windows are dirty. We are suppose to be a light for Jesus but if the light can shine through your dirt then its going to be hidden.
Dont let your light be hidden with the build up of half Christianity, be all or nothing, sell out, and sell out big, get them windows clean like they have never been clean before.
So you know the glass windows and doors you seen at old walmarts. They usually have outside set and an inside set of windows. I dont claim to be a pro at cleaning as a matter of fact I hate cleaning windows. But when the time comes that I need to be a window washer that is what I try to be. It may not get the cleanest or be the best but its my best. So anyways there are so many topics that I could touch on. but one quick note is that there are people that are sold out to their church and to Jesus and then they are some that hold back and dont sell totally out.
One of the window washers stated, Jesus and this church have done so much for me, how can I not give back. It keeps us focused on him and we don't get distracted. that set with me as I began to take a look at the windows. I began to see through the glass and realize that this is going to be a big task. I realized that the inside of the windows would need clean and then the inside set of windows would need a cleaning. You cant just clean on set and forget about the other. When you do something you got to get in there and do it big.
I began to see all the people that have passed through these windows when it was wal-mart. I started to feel the pain, sorrow, sadness, struggles, etc of all the people that have walked through these doors. Then I began to think about those that are going to walk through these doors and find what they are looking for. It set a spark in me, I knew that this is my church and that I am going to be a part of a huge life changing church. The walmart customers don't know it but God has strategically placed this church in the heart of an area that is going to have the potential to reach even more than ever thought possible. I mean come on everyone in this area knows about this Walmart. When its God leading its going to happen. No matter what anyone person might say, when God decides it dosent matter what they think.
I began to realize that the windows are so important, if you don't clean them they get dirt and grime that keeps getting build up. Its like Christians who don't jump in and sell out to Jesus, they walk around with dirty windows. Jesus cant shine through them because their windows are dirty. We are suppose to be a light for Jesus but if the light can shine through your dirt then its going to be hidden.
Dont let your light be hidden with the build up of half Christianity, be all or nothing, sell out, and sell out big, get them windows clean like they have never been clean before.
Thursday, May 14, 2009
How big is your fish bowl?
I am so amazed at my little fish from the New Vision Easter carnival. He is still living. I have even changed his bowl and have given him a proper home and through all the changes of his environment he is still alive. This little fish has given me inspiration and helped me to always side of side of life. Always strive to live even if your fish bowl is small.
You see he lived in a clear glass for several weeks because I though he would die before we got home. I did feed him but I just left him in this little glass and he adapted and over came. My son finally named him Dorothy and keeps saying when he dies we are going to flush him down the toilet. So needles to say this little was never given a chance to live. We wrote him off for dead before he turned belly up.
I think that some times we write ourselves or others off for dead. We just give up on our selves or others and we dont side on life. We say we are prolife but we write millions of babies that are starving all over the world for dead. We dont see that our neighbors and our families are stuggling and no one is listening. In these bad economic times we are so focused on our selves that we write everyone off for dead. Which means we just give up on them and dont help them get out of their small glasses into a better fish bowl.
This little fish was a gift from God. It may never know my name, but I know his. He may never talk to me or speak to me, but I speak to him. He may never thank me for cleaning his bowl but I thank God for him. For showing me that God dosent give up on the smallest of things. That no matter how small you are, or your situation is God still cares. No matter what God is going to take care of you and help you live. You really dont need all the stuff and things you thought you needed to survive. Just the basics and a will to survive. Dont be a stastic dont give into the negative times. Look up look to heavens, look past your cloudy fish bowl and rely on the father to bring you into clear waters.
You see he lived in a clear glass for several weeks because I though he would die before we got home. I did feed him but I just left him in this little glass and he adapted and over came. My son finally named him Dorothy and keeps saying when he dies we are going to flush him down the toilet. So needles to say this little was never given a chance to live. We wrote him off for dead before he turned belly up.
I think that some times we write ourselves or others off for dead. We just give up on our selves or others and we dont side on life. We say we are prolife but we write millions of babies that are starving all over the world for dead. We dont see that our neighbors and our families are stuggling and no one is listening. In these bad economic times we are so focused on our selves that we write everyone off for dead. Which means we just give up on them and dont help them get out of their small glasses into a better fish bowl.
This little fish was a gift from God. It may never know my name, but I know his. He may never talk to me or speak to me, but I speak to him. He may never thank me for cleaning his bowl but I thank God for him. For showing me that God dosent give up on the smallest of things. That no matter how small you are, or your situation is God still cares. No matter what God is going to take care of you and help you live. You really dont need all the stuff and things you thought you needed to survive. Just the basics and a will to survive. Dont be a stastic dont give into the negative times. Look up look to heavens, look past your cloudy fish bowl and rely on the father to bring you into clear waters.
Saturday, April 25, 2009
A Spectators Finish
Today was an emotional day. It was great weather for viewing the Mini and full Kentucky derby Marathon races. I have to give a big shout out to all those who participated, you all did awesome!! Maybe NVMC should see about doing a water stop next year. I realized today how we all need each others support. So here goes some of my view from the side line.
I got there so early to start off and picked a good spot, to only later realize that it didnt matter where I sat people would still manage to stand right in front of me and in my way. Oh well, thats life in a nut shell.
So back to the race. I got to see many different types of runners and people and it was amazing to see people with tremendous stories. There was a man leading a you blind boy to the finish, there were the wheel chair racers, which I have to say inspired me because the strength that it takes to get past the fact you cant walk or run but you can wheel your way to the finish is amazing. The strength of heart and the strength of the upper body amazed me.
I love observing people and their reactions to certain situations in life. As I was intently looking at the runners rounding the corner to the finish line I noticed all different types of reactions. There were those who so victory and achievement, some saw defeat, some were delirious, some unaware of their success, some just glad to be living. 12,000 runners and walkers coming across the finish line to their destiny. You see I have came to the conclusion that its not about how you arrive at the finish. But it's tha
t you Arrive! You see many people sign up for the mini in hopes to finish the race. They have goos intention and are motivated at first. Then life gets in the way and for what ever circumstances they dont get to the finish. So you see the victory they reward is that you finish the race. You cross that finish line. Whether your blind, in a wheel chair, sick, healthy, old, young, etc Its that you finish.Which brings me to some significant moments of that day that I will never forget. As I waited for my husband to round the corner I was absolutely worried. The day was a beautiful day but it was not ideal for long distance running because of the sun. So I was concerned. As I cheered for the full marathoners comming in and realizing that not just my family needs to be cheered for but for those fellow marathoners. We all need a little cheering on from time to time to not give up before we reach the finish.
After waiting for what seems like forever. In the distance I finally saw michael. I know his running stride and I could see that he was in pain. I know that he will never admitt that he was but what he didnt realize was he was almost there to the finish line. As we made eye contact I cannot explain the emotional realse of relief that I felt in seeing him because my worry was over but also seeing him in pain and knowing he needed me to help him along the way. We walked to gether for a bit and I grabbed his hand and I gave him the encouragement that I could and gave him a pat on his back and he started to the finish, I knew that took all his strenght. Mike has been taking the training easy so he was not as prepared but he wanted to finish.
He ran the marathon a couple of years ago and finished in good time, but this time was different even though he didnt finish with a better time, the fact was the he finished. I thin
k that we sometime take for granted how many people dont have the strenght or the encouragement that could have propelled them to the finish. We must encourage our loved ones and others to finish the race. Finish the fight for their lives, finish was God is starting in them. What would this world be like if we were able to help and encourage each other in our goals and the races of life.I am proud of Mike and though I will never understand the physical pain he felt running, I know that I can take pride in knowing that I was there to cheer him on and to see him finish!!!!
Sunday, April 19, 2009
It Blows my mind.
So some updates on me, well??? My new job seems to be going good so far. I hope it continues that way:)
Its been hard leaving my little ones, but I know that there was a time for a change so I could get a break.
Today in church was great, I helped out some in the nursery and then I was on the balcony watching the worship in the 11 am service and it was amazing. I got see people praising and being touched by God. One thing in particular I saw was a boy that I think has down syndrome. He was praising God with everything that he had. To say the least it touched me deeply to see him worship God with all his heart. I could see that is what he was doing. I love to see people just praise God and not care what others think about them. Wow it blows my mind.
Not matter what seek God to know him personally and then you will see the need to worship with everything that you got. You will see that you will want to worship and praise him just because of who he is:)
Its been hard leaving my little ones, but I know that there was a time for a change so I could get a break.
Today in church was great, I helped out some in the nursery and then I was on the balcony watching the worship in the 11 am service and it was amazing. I got see people praising and being touched by God. One thing in particular I saw was a boy that I think has down syndrome. He was praising God with everything that he had. To say the least it touched me deeply to see him worship God with all his heart. I could see that is what he was doing. I love to see people just praise God and not care what others think about them. Wow it blows my mind.
Not matter what seek God to know him personally and then you will see the need to worship with everything that you got. You will see that you will want to worship and praise him just because of who he is:)
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
This is amazing:) I got a JOB!!!
Alright now this is an interesting story. So at church we have been talking about abundance at church and tithing. Well I am not sure if all that these series of events that have happened have anything to do with each other but here it goes.
Well to start off with we were tithing on the 10% of mikes new job he got several months ago, well his insurance kicked in and we were getting less take home pay which would me less money for tithes but I felt I was suppose to keep the same tithe amount and not give less to the church. I struggled with this because I was starting to give in to the woes of the economy because I have been looking for a job with no luck what so ever. I was getting a little frustrated but I felt that we should tithe on what we were making before the insurance came out. So we did. I kept saying ok where is my increase I am doing the right thing now; Hello are you up there? Do you notice?
Well one thing I had to do was renew my mind and take a step back and say ok I cant control what is going on and I leave it in your hands. You hand pick me a job. So I wasn't as stressed looking and applied and was rejectioned several times, One after another.
The first sign of relief was I got a booked wedding for April. Paid in full. Awesome right on time.
But the rejections were still comming, so I was back to square one. Then I got a call for an interview and was socked to just get an interview. So it went great and I was really confindent about the job and felt that that was the place I should be. But I didnt get a call back.
Well I got more rejections and more rejections. Then out of no where I got a call for a lady wanting to book and wedding for July. Amazed once again. Right when I need a boost of faith something little happend and I was assured that God gives you want you need at the right time.
Then the call came and I got a second interview for the job I really felt good about. I was exicted and nervous but after meeting the HR and talked a few minuites with this lady who I just meat like maybe 5 minutes she said that I was to meet one more person and then they would let me know next week. I remember thinking great if they let you walk out then you prob didnt get it. But after I talked with another lady we were walking out of the office and we shut off the light and the HR lady came and turned it back on and she said lets talk a little bit more. She told me that the ladies I would be working with closely begged the hired me. Whattttt, who does that?? Then she go on to say that the office manager REALLY liked me and only had good things to say about me. WHAT, I began to think how could I have made such an impression on these people. I send a thank you for the interview email but misspelled a word. I was plain and honest about who I was. So how in the world or why in the world who they remember me? ?? Was it the red hair I cant find the right color I want??? What is it??? Then a Light bulb came on and I realized it was the FOG (Favor of God) The reason they wanted me to work with them so bad is much more deeper than they realize. They dont know that what I carry with me is life changing. He will be with me at work, at home, and where ever I go. They know there was something different about me:0) I am so exicted and praise his name for all he is going to do in the lives of people at church. Follow his leading in what you tithe, in where you serve, in anything you do follow where he leads, because it can only lead to good things. Blesseings when you need them not when you want them:)
That is all for now God is totally awesome and Walk in the FOG, let your shadow be annointed so much that it leaves the frangrance of God behind:0)
Well to start off with we were tithing on the 10% of mikes new job he got several months ago, well his insurance kicked in and we were getting less take home pay which would me less money for tithes but I felt I was suppose to keep the same tithe amount and not give less to the church. I struggled with this because I was starting to give in to the woes of the economy because I have been looking for a job with no luck what so ever. I was getting a little frustrated but I felt that we should tithe on what we were making before the insurance came out. So we did. I kept saying ok where is my increase I am doing the right thing now; Hello are you up there? Do you notice?
Well one thing I had to do was renew my mind and take a step back and say ok I cant control what is going on and I leave it in your hands. You hand pick me a job. So I wasn't as stressed looking and applied and was rejectioned several times, One after another.
The first sign of relief was I got a booked wedding for April. Paid in full. Awesome right on time.
But the rejections were still comming, so I was back to square one. Then I got a call for an interview and was socked to just get an interview. So it went great and I was really confindent about the job and felt that that was the place I should be. But I didnt get a call back.
Well I got more rejections and more rejections. Then out of no where I got a call for a lady wanting to book and wedding for July. Amazed once again. Right when I need a boost of faith something little happend and I was assured that God gives you want you need at the right time.
Then the call came and I got a second interview for the job I really felt good about. I was exicted and nervous but after meeting the HR and talked a few minuites with this lady who I just meat like maybe 5 minutes she said that I was to meet one more person and then they would let me know next week. I remember thinking great if they let you walk out then you prob didnt get it. But after I talked with another lady we were walking out of the office and we shut off the light and the HR lady came and turned it back on and she said lets talk a little bit more. She told me that the ladies I would be working with closely begged the hired me. Whattttt, who does that?? Then she go on to say that the office manager REALLY liked me and only had good things to say about me. WHAT, I began to think how could I have made such an impression on these people. I send a thank you for the interview email but misspelled a word. I was plain and honest about who I was. So how in the world or why in the world who they remember me? ?? Was it the red hair I cant find the right color I want??? What is it??? Then a Light bulb came on and I realized it was the FOG (Favor of God) The reason they wanted me to work with them so bad is much more deeper than they realize. They dont know that what I carry with me is life changing. He will be with me at work, at home, and where ever I go. They know there was something different about me:0) I am so exicted and praise his name for all he is going to do in the lives of people at church. Follow his leading in what you tithe, in where you serve, in anything you do follow where he leads, because it can only lead to good things. Blesseings when you need them not when you want them:)
That is all for now God is totally awesome and Walk in the FOG, let your shadow be annointed so much that it leaves the frangrance of God behind:0)
Wednesday, March 4, 2009
Dance & Shout with me:)
So here I am just pondering some changes in me over the last couple of weeks. I have heard and read and listened to many different things that all kinda said some of the same things.
When I was a younger around 8 and 9th grade I had such a relationship with God that I still feel like I dont have now. I made some really bad choices and chose relationships with certain people over a ever lasting non failable relationship with the only one who can really complete me and that is the one who made me in my mothers womb. The Author of all LIFE. Jesus.
I use to praise God with everything that was in me, I was so in love, I sought after his love day and night, I was relentless in my persuite of his glory that it was always on my mind.
But through lots of series of choices that I made, i pretty much choose a boy over Jesus's endless love. I have blogged about that before. Yes it was the one that I was emotionally abused, physically abused, and controlled by. Even though I was brought up in a good home with a praying mom I still chose death. I really feel like I literally died during the course of those years of bad really bad choices that I being a christian knew better than to make.
I meat a wonderful man who loves God and is a awesome man, cant say enough about the great things he does to support me and our wonderful kids.
I have never got back to that place I use to be with Jesus, I have persued but not with everything like I used to, I have prayed but not with everything like I use to. So then I wonder why nothing is changing.
I cant live off what was use to be, I cant live off how I was a victum, I cant live off my own thoughts, feelings, actions or anything else of me.
I can only live by grace and mercy of the father that is always there with his arms wide open. I dont understand why some really bad things happen to good people. I dont understand why people are suffering from pointless causes and illnesses or hunger, But I do one thing and that is Jesus is the only answer to anything. He may not heal your sickness, he may not feed your hungry body, But what he can give no one else can give, I mean NO ONE can give.
He gaves his own life and was beaten so that our sins, our mistakes, our hurts, our dark places could find peace and assurance that everything is gonna be alright.
When you walk with Jesus you are assured that you are safe even though you have tornados and hurricanes in your life.
So anyways with all this said I have had the prividledge to get to minister through mime and to teach a group of people mime. I can that I am encouraged by one of the members that is on the team. they remind me every day that no matter what we should give him our praise.
Yes people are gonna talk when you just start screaming, jumping, running, spinning, or what ever it is you might do when praiseing him, but that is ok. My lord is worthy to be praised and he should have nothing less than the praises that I have to give, sometimes I dont feel like it but I am sure he didnt feel like getting on that crosss and being nailed to that tree but he did so that I might live. I just have to praise him in my trails and in my hard times and in my distress.
So watch out I gotta praise, I gotta worship. If you dont like it or you get distracted then maybe you should seek your own heart and find out why you are not praiseing with me. I got something to shout about, and its his name.
You aint gonna steal my joy and peace, just because you dont like how I dance or how I shout. Shout with me. Dance with me. Get in only the joy of the lord with me.
Ok ok Ok if I go on I will really start to preach while I am dancing and shouting.
When I was a younger around 8 and 9th grade I had such a relationship with God that I still feel like I dont have now. I made some really bad choices and chose relationships with certain people over a ever lasting non failable relationship with the only one who can really complete me and that is the one who made me in my mothers womb. The Author of all LIFE. Jesus.
I use to praise God with everything that was in me, I was so in love, I sought after his love day and night, I was relentless in my persuite of his glory that it was always on my mind.
But through lots of series of choices that I made, i pretty much choose a boy over Jesus's endless love. I have blogged about that before. Yes it was the one that I was emotionally abused, physically abused, and controlled by. Even though I was brought up in a good home with a praying mom I still chose death. I really feel like I literally died during the course of those years of bad really bad choices that I being a christian knew better than to make.
I meat a wonderful man who loves God and is a awesome man, cant say enough about the great things he does to support me and our wonderful kids.
I have never got back to that place I use to be with Jesus, I have persued but not with everything like I used to, I have prayed but not with everything like I use to. So then I wonder why nothing is changing.
I cant live off what was use to be, I cant live off how I was a victum, I cant live off my own thoughts, feelings, actions or anything else of me.
I can only live by grace and mercy of the father that is always there with his arms wide open. I dont understand why some really bad things happen to good people. I dont understand why people are suffering from pointless causes and illnesses or hunger, But I do one thing and that is Jesus is the only answer to anything. He may not heal your sickness, he may not feed your hungry body, But what he can give no one else can give, I mean NO ONE can give.
He gaves his own life and was beaten so that our sins, our mistakes, our hurts, our dark places could find peace and assurance that everything is gonna be alright.
When you walk with Jesus you are assured that you are safe even though you have tornados and hurricanes in your life.
So anyways with all this said I have had the prividledge to get to minister through mime and to teach a group of people mime. I can that I am encouraged by one of the members that is on the team. they remind me every day that no matter what we should give him our praise.
Yes people are gonna talk when you just start screaming, jumping, running, spinning, or what ever it is you might do when praiseing him, but that is ok. My lord is worthy to be praised and he should have nothing less than the praises that I have to give, sometimes I dont feel like it but I am sure he didnt feel like getting on that crosss and being nailed to that tree but he did so that I might live. I just have to praise him in my trails and in my hard times and in my distress.
So watch out I gotta praise, I gotta worship. If you dont like it or you get distracted then maybe you should seek your own heart and find out why you are not praiseing with me. I got something to shout about, and its his name.
You aint gonna steal my joy and peace, just because you dont like how I dance or how I shout. Shout with me. Dance with me. Get in only the joy of the lord with me.
Ok ok Ok if I go on I will really start to preach while I am dancing and shouting.
Sunday, February 22, 2009
Hope- its there just grab it!
So here I am adding more to my blog. This is where I am at in my life, I guess. Ever since my grandmother was in the hospital before she passed away last year; almost everyone said there was no hope so I put this in my van to remind me that just because some one says there is no hope dosent mean there isnt any. There is more hope than anyone can imagine. This is a silent reminder to me that even though she is gone and living with Jesus that there still is hope. There is always hope and you have to make it for yourself, she never gave up hope when I saw her in the hospital she said I am still here, even though she was not doing well she still had hope and purpose.
My mind has been spinning and spinning, and I have been going through the Rolodex of my brain (as stated by Pam) wondering and wondering and wondering what to do next, am I taking the right step, or why am I not doing this but that. So many things are constantly spinning around. It seems to never stop. So I prayed and was have been seeking God on what is my purpose and what is my destiny. I constantly doubt and doubt even though I know what I am suppose to do. I do things that I know I am not suppose to do and then I end up getting more frustrated.
My purpose and my destiny in life is to be hidden or things done in secret that only Gods sees and acknowledges. Come on everyone likes to be noticed and I use to really deal with that, not that I wanted attention but that I just needed someone to notice me as a person that they couldn't live without me. Well there is more to that from my past experiences over 10 years ago. As a young girl, I dealt with this all my life, I constantly feel in adequate and not able. I now realize that I needed hope in Jesus to feel that gap of adequate feelings. He will come through and fill your heart and make you adequate and well equipped to do his will and his testimony.
I guess what it is that I am trying to say is to always have HOPE, because it will keep you from going insane:)
Saturday, January 17, 2009
Just say Yes
So last Wednesday I have had the privileged to do a mime for church again. This time I was alone in doing it:). It went absolutely the way it was suppose to.
I feel that the message that God has been sending us, meaning Christians, is to just say Yes. Say yes and do what needs to be done. Quit picking and choosing what we want to do and do want no one else wants to do.
Whether its serving in the nursery on a special night, For example Eddie James is in town and no one wants to watch the babies. Rightfully understood, but there are 4 services to get in on.
Or no one wants to watch the 2 years olds, or wants to clean the church, or wants to park and ride a shuttle.
I am talking about doing whats no one wants to do. Do it with a passion. Jesus washed some pretty nasty feet in a time where they wore sandles and the roads were paved and they probably stepped in some pretty nasty stuff. They prob stank really bad as well, eww yuck!
The Harvest is PLENTY but the LABORORS are few. That means where are the workers. The harvestees get harvested and dont become producers. They dont continue the process. churches cant function with only a few willing workers. They need plenty.
Think of the reward you will have not of this earth by watching the child of a family that gets saved or renews their lives to God. Wow that is an honor. Also people go where their child like it. If you dont have workers to minister to the children they children dont want to be there then the parents more than likely wont come.
After being blessed by Eddie James and his crew and really praying about the church growing. Well I feel like we cant continue to grow and no one starts to step up and help. Its called take a little of your personal time and giving it to God.
He requires us to give of our time, money, and talents.
That is something that I have really been dealing with it to give of my time, money, and my talents for the sake of his name and furthring his Kingdom.
The need for labors and workers is so great that we maybe leaving some of the harvest forgotten and not harvested. They are so ready to picked. We need to serve so others can have the same experiences as we have had. So we can bring more into the kingdom. God sees the work that we do and nothing else matters expect that he sees and the rewards are not of this earth:)
So if you are serving and are getting discouraged and fustrated cause it seems your the only one. Look up because he is with you and sees you and you are blessed:)
Now that dosent mean you got to volunteer every service either. Just do something because it is better than nothing:)
Anyways I like to share what I deal with and what I go through, I feel like the dishes are going to be there when you get back so if you got to leave a little early and leave then do it. They cant thank you for cleaning. God is not going to punish you for giving up a little time to go early and serve.
Ok thats it for now. God Bless:)
I feel that the message that God has been sending us, meaning Christians, is to just say Yes. Say yes and do what needs to be done. Quit picking and choosing what we want to do and do want no one else wants to do.
Whether its serving in the nursery on a special night, For example Eddie James is in town and no one wants to watch the babies. Rightfully understood, but there are 4 services to get in on.
Or no one wants to watch the 2 years olds, or wants to clean the church, or wants to park and ride a shuttle.
I am talking about doing whats no one wants to do. Do it with a passion. Jesus washed some pretty nasty feet in a time where they wore sandles and the roads were paved and they probably stepped in some pretty nasty stuff. They prob stank really bad as well, eww yuck!
The Harvest is PLENTY but the LABORORS are few. That means where are the workers. The harvestees get harvested and dont become producers. They dont continue the process. churches cant function with only a few willing workers. They need plenty.
Think of the reward you will have not of this earth by watching the child of a family that gets saved or renews their lives to God. Wow that is an honor. Also people go where their child like it. If you dont have workers to minister to the children they children dont want to be there then the parents more than likely wont come.
After being blessed by Eddie James and his crew and really praying about the church growing. Well I feel like we cant continue to grow and no one starts to step up and help. Its called take a little of your personal time and giving it to God.
He requires us to give of our time, money, and talents.
That is something that I have really been dealing with it to give of my time, money, and my talents for the sake of his name and furthring his Kingdom.
The need for labors and workers is so great that we maybe leaving some of the harvest forgotten and not harvested. They are so ready to picked. We need to serve so others can have the same experiences as we have had. So we can bring more into the kingdom. God sees the work that we do and nothing else matters expect that he sees and the rewards are not of this earth:)
So if you are serving and are getting discouraged and fustrated cause it seems your the only one. Look up because he is with you and sees you and you are blessed:)
Now that dosent mean you got to volunteer every service either. Just do something because it is better than nothing:)
Anyways I like to share what I deal with and what I go through, I feel like the dishes are going to be there when you get back so if you got to leave a little early and leave then do it. They cant thank you for cleaning. God is not going to punish you for giving up a little time to go early and serve.
Ok thats it for now. God Bless:)
Thursday, January 15, 2009
Thursday, January 1, 2009
Christmas Time and Rining in the New Year
This Christmas season has been one that I m sure Dominic will remember, it was his first one adjusting to having his baby brother get presents too, so he was sharing the presents in a sense. He is at the age that he just likes to rip into presents and loves doing it. he is so Cute and I love him for that. Ryder's first christmas was good he was a little sick and still has a runny nose, poor little guy. he still has no clue. But christmas was a little harder this year and Mike had a new job which he is really stressed over and works a lot more than before. I know that it was a step that God wanted us to take but now that were here were like why are we, but we have to remember to trust in God and that he will lead us.
Now its new years day and my house is still quiet. we stayed home and spent the night together as a family and it was really nice, except dominic my 4 year old didnt understand the concept of saying Happy New years because it was still dark outside and that kinda freaked him out because he was so tired. Then he woke up this morning and was like ok now we can say it cause it is day. He is so cute. I know that the New year will bring in new things for us, and now we can expect better things.
Happy New Year, yeah its 2009 man I am getting old:(
Now its new years day and my house is still quiet. we stayed home and spent the night together as a family and it was really nice, except dominic my 4 year old didnt understand the concept of saying Happy New years because it was still dark outside and that kinda freaked him out because he was so tired. Then he woke up this morning and was like ok now we can say it cause it is day. He is so cute. I know that the New year will bring in new things for us, and now we can expect better things.
Happy New Year, yeah its 2009 man I am getting old:(
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