Redirection and Repositioning

I feel lead to share this and I hope that it is seen as my heart for others.  I am not gonna dare say in the process of life I have been perfect or ever will be perfect.

In hard times it is sooo easy to remember the bad things and focus on the hard times that are going on around us that we forget the many lives that have been touched.  I always say that God is going to be God no matter if we get in the way of it or not.  Sooo many people have been touched by Jesus at New Vision Ministry Center.  Yes even in the last few months at our new building which is now the old building.  People walked in the building for example when church wasnt happening and you could tell they were brought there with tears in their eyes because Jesus was there.

Over the last several years God has drawn many people to him despise us and what we make of things.  I am not talking about the failures of Just one.  I am talking about the failure of the church as a whole.  I have many opinions on the matter and have seen a lot of behind the scenes things.  I just want to Give God the praise for all he has done despite our human nature.  Be assured that God makes us all accountable for the things we do, know, say, speak, and act.  Despite the obvious there are many things that God has seen and has been disappointed with in ALL of us.  But as I look at all the different type of people, and different types of lives, and what God has done it amazes me. 

I have personally worked with several people who would have never came inside a Regular church to be honest if I had know it was a Church of God church I prob would have never stepped in the front door and I have been saved all my life since I was six when I was filled with the Holy Spirit.  I have seen alot in my 21 years as a christian.   People are looking for a church that can feel that they are able to walk into and fit right in.  They are looking for a place that dosent scream change or go to hell. I think we as a church as a whole all over the world are afraid to truly open our doors and let anyone in.  In a recent service I heard well if someone disagrees with you or causes trouble what u do is compliment them and walk them to the door and then say Go find another church.  WOW that blew my mind as I sat and thought about Jesus eating with those tax collectors, street people, and those deemed as "find another church type of people."  If we are going to be a church that represents Jesus then lets truly represent him and let him change the hearts and minds of people, not rush them out door cause we are afraid of confrontation.  Lets remember if Jesus is on our side he gives us the words and things to speak to be able to penetrate even the most unpentratable people.

We also started the online services being broadcast which allowed those sick and those who might not want to come to church visit.  There were those who even paid tithe through the online church.  Who knows how many lives were touched by the internet broadcast.  There was even a man that is deemed unreachable watching some of our services.   There were many good things and many good people.  I want us to remember that, because lives were changed because of Jesus. 

I am tired of Church as the Norm.  I am tired of Church politics and how people act.  One minute they love you and the next well not so much.   Yes my family was hurt in the process and that is what the devil delights in.  Not in the sin as much as how humans act when the pressure is on and stress comes.  It really tests are true character.

I have been in churches all my life and have seen so many pastors come and go, and have seen alot of things.  It amazes me that seemingly the same process continues and we wonder why are churches are falling apart. We have to be careful listen to our heart (which is the holy spirit if it lives in side of us) tell us to do. 

My family has been redirected and repositioned to a new direction for a time.  Many may question, many will think what they will but I will follow God no matter what any says, thinks, opinionates about me.  He is my ultimate Judge:)

We have to start looking at the Good in things rather than all the bad that is going on and happening.  As New Vision has came to a close I am proud that I was a part of the many lives that were touched and changed forever through that ministry.  I am sad that it is no more.  I have to part from the new congregation that has formed because one thing and that is I feel that I am released from there.  Not just because of the hurts but because I want to truly be effective on what God has called me and my family to do.  My prayers are that the new church moves forward for what God has called them to do and that they listen to his every direction.

I am looking forward the brighter things ahead and what God is going to do through us.  Sometimes you realize that if something takes away from the time you spend with God and your family then it needs to get revaluated.  If we dont reevaluate then he will do it for us.   That is how much he loves us.  He initiates the steps we need to take for reevaluation and repositioning.

I am repositioned and reevaluated and ready for greater things to come.  I am ready for his presence to consume and over take me.  Im ready to share what Jesus has done for me not just because it what a good christian is suppose to do, but because my relationship with Jesus is soooo strong that I want others to know the love that he has for ALL.  ALL Every person is valuable, no matter their flawes, there is always hope for someone and If no one else thinks so then I want to find it.  Cant wait Cant wait Im ready and Im stepping out of the doors of building to do something more for Jesus:)

Beacon in the Dark!

Have you ever took a step in the dark hoping you wouldn't step on a lego or toy?  I do this quite often:)(2 boys who love legos)  A sigh of relief fills the air as my foot plants softly on the floor with no harm to my foot, but that soon fades as my foot rises once again to take that next step.

Only if we could totally trust the dark we wouldn't have this problem or if we could trust our kids to put away their toys.  This got me to thinking about how we should trust God.  No matter where you are in life you may not see right away where your feet will land but know that God will guide you to the right places.  Its when we try to guide our own steps when we stumble on the toys or things left lying around.

As a Child of God I want to make sure that my walk is humble and that I can be a reliable and relate able person to others who are in need of help, praying, friend to talk to, etc  My trust in God has to shine through so others will see that they too can totally trust him to take care of their needs.  If my faith is wavering and I am literally a mess its really hard for others to see that faith works.  Not saying life has to be or is perfect but saying we should always watch our actions and how we deal with things because you never know who is watching.

For example say someone has done you wrong and you openly are glad they are having trouble.  Or you even secretly delight in their pain or suffering cause they deserved it.  Well God see's your reaction and your heart in that dealing.  He sees what choices you have before you and that is to spread life or death on your own soul.  By taking joy in another suffering actually brings you one step closer or away from the life that you need to be close to the father.

Every decision whether its taking part in a bad joke at work, be negative, or woe is me, or everyone hates me, or by being depressed all the time and not partaking in the JOY of the Lord even when don't feel like it.  Not matter what we must always take a step back and see that we are never far way from letting our selves partake in sin. So we must always watch and trust God to lead us and guard our hearts by the making choices that keeps us closer to him and not farther away from him.

I want to be a light in the dark place, I want to walk in the dark so that my light for Jesus will shine brighter than before.  If a candle is always in a lite room how effective is it until it hits the dark then its seen from all around.  Thats where I want to be!!  Let the Lord guide me through the dark so those who live in the dark will see the light and be able to know you because I was a beacon in the dark.