In the last couple of months my family and I have been discussing the try meaning of worship and how we are suppose to worship and give back to God for all that he has done for us.
Several months ago my husband was touched by God in a worship service that was going on at the church that we were attending at that time. God moved on him and he ran in the church. He ran to the back area and wasnt showing off or anything like that. The worship was great by something quenced that ignition that made my husband and I take a deeper look at worshiping God. Well what happened was the pastor of that church stopped him and told him that he was "freaking People out man" were the exact words. I was deeply sadden by this because there were so many people that thanked mike for stepping out to worship God. The one who created us and saved us from all our sin, who gave his ONLY son so that we could go to heaven. How can we hold everything back and just play church and sit and not praise the glorious one who made is all possible. we talked with that pastor at a later date and we were not impressed or felt that we should stay there. Pretty much we felt that is was a church made for a certain type of people and all werent as welcome as I thought. They didnt want to scare anyone away, but it seems that if someone wants to be scared away they really do want to be there. I am so tired of the new types of churches that come in and sit and dont ingage with Jesus. It seems that they are ashamed of what God has done. I dont want to please man and the only one we should please is God. We didnt leave that church with harsh words or anything but I did state that if they dont realize that the church belongs to God not them and that he created us all to be free to worship and free to run. and free to live for him, without worring about offending someone.
I guess that belief is that when you subdue your urge to praise that you are dying to slef and not giving to the flesh and that there are other ways to worhsip, the other ways to worship part is so ture. You give of your money, time and talents. You share with others the love of God.
All in all I have found that there is NO freedom when you have to worry about offending people. That so what if we do offend them, its not by our own selves that any one will accept Jesus, it is his calling and he pursuing that engages them not us. Sure we do the sowing and plant seeds and nurture, train, and counsel them but we dont save anyone, it is only him that can do that. So when it is true worship and when some runs, jumps, shouts or praises God however it is God who will judge if it is right or not.
So we left that church becuase we knew our hearts was to be in constant worshipful and pursuing after him with everything, I mean everypart of our lives. and to find a church that freedom reigns.
We are exicted to know that we have found that place and that Going to New Visions Ministry Center is awesome. You see people getting saved all the time, you see that God is doing it, and that his presence is here. He is doing something for the city of Louisville with this Church and he is bringing back the worship to him. Worship and have a relationship with him and EVERYTHING else will fall into place. Accept him as the LORD of your life with Jump Start everthing. It will be hard and it will be tough, but I always say GOd wont give you anything that he didnt think that you couldnt handle.
Go out there and worship him, share the love of God, be a friend, mentor, and person of his name.
Wednesday, July 30, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
Train derailment-January 16,07-update on God’s Goodness
When a train derailed approximately 100 meters from my front door, needless to say, my families life was changed forever.
On January 16, 2007 was a day that I will never forget. At the time I was approx 6 weeks pregnant. My 2 1/2 year old son was still asleep in bed while I was awake with morning sickness stairing at the ceiling. At about 8:30 am in on that tuesday morning I heard the usual rumble of the train tracks go by, but something didnt feel right in the air. It started to get louder and louder, my house windows shook and I immediatley thought its a tornado, then I said wait its not storming, I ran across the house to my sons room, but before I picked him I peaked through his blinds, and saw the most scary thing I had ever saw. A hugh ball of flamed rose over 100 feet into the air, the heat was so hot I could feel it through the glass window. I was in total awe of this crazy explosion. I think I said oh crap or somehting like that and scooped up my son and began getting clothes and things ready to get out of the house. I called my husband at work and told him what happened and he really didnt believe me at all, but soon realized I was not joking at all. He immediately tried to come and get me because the road to our house is right next to the tracks and he knew I couldnt drive out. I looked out side again to see the train had derailed and was in flames and the the black smoke filled the air and was comming toward our house. I was scared and remember praying god please protect my unborn baby. My husband urged me to go to the neighbors to the back of me, so i gathered everything I thought I might need which was not much. My son got himself dressed (which he never done before) and was ready to go. we left the house and the whole time he kept trying to look at what was going on. The neighbour actually took a picture of us leaving with the black smoke filling the air. We stayed at the neighbours hosue till we were told to leave by the fire department, but at this time my neighbours were trying to take of their dogs cause the own a kennel. So I told them that I was leaving. The fireman said you have to walk across the field to go around the fire. I was like uhhh ok if thats what I got to do. Well try holding your 2 1/2 year old and being pregnant while walking across a field of unmowed grass with lots of animal waiste, It was approx 2 or more acres. That was craziness. I was reunited with my husband who was not allowed to come to house but was only allowed to stay at a road block. I did take one last look and new that I would never see the house that was again, and I was right, we never moved back into that house again. I ended up loosing the baby, which was really hard. After approx 6 or so months of living in hotels, apartments, and other places. We finally settled with the train company. We dont own that house anymore, we have another one, which is better. We dont live near the tracts anymore. I have to say that I thank God that it had rained a couple of days before which made the rail cars sink instead of slide into our houses. God spared our lives. we have to trust him and listen to him and he will guide our paths. Over a year later I now have a new son which I would not have had. He is an absolute joy and I thank God for him. Its hard for people to understand that everything we owned was either cleaned or thrown away, and we didnt get anything back for at least 6 months. That was a long 6 months of having my 2 year old scared of any loud noise and be afraid to sleep on his own. I never want to do that again, he was out of routine and I know he must have been stressed, but I am sure God helped him deal with it, cause he was happy just being with us and holding us. home is not the building you live but the people that you cant replace is where its at. God is good!
On January 16, 2007 was a day that I will never forget. At the time I was approx 6 weeks pregnant. My 2 1/2 year old son was still asleep in bed while I was awake with morning sickness stairing at the ceiling. At about 8:30 am in on that tuesday morning I heard the usual rumble of the train tracks go by, but something didnt feel right in the air. It started to get louder and louder, my house windows shook and I immediatley thought its a tornado, then I said wait its not storming, I ran across the house to my sons room, but before I picked him I peaked through his blinds, and saw the most scary thing I had ever saw. A hugh ball of flamed rose over 100 feet into the air, the heat was so hot I could feel it through the glass window. I was in total awe of this crazy explosion. I think I said oh crap or somehting like that and scooped up my son and began getting clothes and things ready to get out of the house. I called my husband at work and told him what happened and he really didnt believe me at all, but soon realized I was not joking at all. He immediately tried to come and get me because the road to our house is right next to the tracks and he knew I couldnt drive out. I looked out side again to see the train had derailed and was in flames and the the black smoke filled the air and was comming toward our house. I was scared and remember praying god please protect my unborn baby. My husband urged me to go to the neighbors to the back of me, so i gathered everything I thought I might need which was not much. My son got himself dressed (which he never done before) and was ready to go. we left the house and the whole time he kept trying to look at what was going on. The neighbour actually took a picture of us leaving with the black smoke filling the air. We stayed at the neighbours hosue till we were told to leave by the fire department, but at this time my neighbours were trying to take of their dogs cause the own a kennel. So I told them that I was leaving. The fireman said you have to walk across the field to go around the fire. I was like uhhh ok if thats what I got to do. Well try holding your 2 1/2 year old and being pregnant while walking across a field of unmowed grass with lots of animal waiste, It was approx 2 or more acres. That was craziness. I was reunited with my husband who was not allowed to come to house but was only allowed to stay at a road block. I did take one last look and new that I would never see the house that was again, and I was right, we never moved back into that house again. I ended up loosing the baby, which was really hard. After approx 6 or so months of living in hotels, apartments, and other places. We finally settled with the train company. We dont own that house anymore, we have another one, which is better. We dont live near the tracts anymore. I have to say that I thank God that it had rained a couple of days before which made the rail cars sink instead of slide into our houses. God spared our lives. we have to trust him and listen to him and he will guide our paths. Over a year later I now have a new son which I would not have had. He is an absolute joy and I thank God for him. Its hard for people to understand that everything we owned was either cleaned or thrown away, and we didnt get anything back for at least 6 months. That was a long 6 months of having my 2 year old scared of any loud noise and be afraid to sleep on his own. I never want to do that again, he was out of routine and I know he must have been stressed, but I am sure God helped him deal with it, cause he was happy just being with us and holding us. home is not the building you live but the people that you cant replace is where its at. God is good!
Monday, July 21, 2008
Sunday Testimony!
My familiy and I are currently going to New Vision Ministry Center. Last Sunday was such an awesome experience that I will never forget.
I know that people never want to admitt what we need to work on. Like if its our attitudes or whatever.
I have pretty much been saved all my life, since I was 6, I was filled with the holy spirit and spoke in toungues around that time too. I have been witnessing and sharing with others ever since I was young. My family always reading the bible together every night. So you can say that I have been with God for a long time, But even though I had all that, I dont think that I had a true relationship with God until I was about in the 9th grade. But something happend to me when I was in high school that made me turn and run away from God. I met this boy that was good at first but he ended up being no so great. He turned from God himself and became and very mean and controling boyfriend. One thing that I read was that young girls go though a time where they start their self esteem over when they become a teenager. That is the truth for sure. That boy emotionally abused me, I was constantly told that I was trash, or squashable like a bug, or no good. I began to believe this, even though that I would not admitt this to any one. He did not respect me at all. There were times that I was physically abused by that same boy. I was slammed against the wall and no one cared, not even the teacher. After approx 2 years of living under this control and negative influence, needless to say I was pretty messed up. I was angry and alone.
I didnt have any friends because I didnt want to hear I told you so's. I didnt feel like I had anyone to tell this too because when you have gone through different situations the last thing you need to hear from someone is I told you so's. I was very emotionally unstable and I didnt trust anyone,
I was set free from the relationship and did get back to church, but not until last sunday after 9 years of thinking that I was over this did I realize that I wasnt. I still believe that I wasnt worth anything or no one likes me. I just know that the words that we speak to others can never be taken back and once we say something it could have a great impact over the rest of our lives. without Gods help true healing cannot take place.
I would like to say that sunday I was emotionally healed and that what I held on to for so long and that was pushed deep in side my sould was brougt to the surface and was finally over. When I heared the message on sunday I saw things in my own heart and soul that I knew that this message was for me. Before I was at the alter I knew that I had to go up there. I knew God said that this was for you. It was for me. Thanks for New Vision Ministry center in Louisville.
I know kow that I have a passion for young girls and teens in general to know that the choices that they do now could affect them forever. When I see young girls in this kind of emotional stress I see their pain, I feel it so strong. No matter how strong with think we are and how close we might feel that we dont have to read the bible or worship God or to be in his presence that isnt true. we must every day choose to love and be with him, we must choose it every day to take up the banner and run a marathon for his name sake.
No matter how great your relationship is with God it dosent matter. we must daily train ourselves and never stop. we have to take a look deep within and heal those hurting places in our hearts. we must admit our failures and our pains and give them to God.
Just give everything over to the lord and know that he is your only source of strength and that he only can be the one to heal all your pain and your inner most thoughts and struggles.
I know that people never want to admitt what we need to work on. Like if its our attitudes or whatever.
I have pretty much been saved all my life, since I was 6, I was filled with the holy spirit and spoke in toungues around that time too. I have been witnessing and sharing with others ever since I was young. My family always reading the bible together every night. So you can say that I have been with God for a long time, But even though I had all that, I dont think that I had a true relationship with God until I was about in the 9th grade. But something happend to me when I was in high school that made me turn and run away from God. I met this boy that was good at first but he ended up being no so great. He turned from God himself and became and very mean and controling boyfriend. One thing that I read was that young girls go though a time where they start their self esteem over when they become a teenager. That is the truth for sure. That boy emotionally abused me, I was constantly told that I was trash, or squashable like a bug, or no good. I began to believe this, even though that I would not admitt this to any one. He did not respect me at all. There were times that I was physically abused by that same boy. I was slammed against the wall and no one cared, not even the teacher. After approx 2 years of living under this control and negative influence, needless to say I was pretty messed up. I was angry and alone.
I didnt have any friends because I didnt want to hear I told you so's. I didnt feel like I had anyone to tell this too because when you have gone through different situations the last thing you need to hear from someone is I told you so's. I was very emotionally unstable and I didnt trust anyone,
I was set free from the relationship and did get back to church, but not until last sunday after 9 years of thinking that I was over this did I realize that I wasnt. I still believe that I wasnt worth anything or no one likes me. I just know that the words that we speak to others can never be taken back and once we say something it could have a great impact over the rest of our lives. without Gods help true healing cannot take place.
I would like to say that sunday I was emotionally healed and that what I held on to for so long and that was pushed deep in side my sould was brougt to the surface and was finally over. When I heared the message on sunday I saw things in my own heart and soul that I knew that this message was for me. Before I was at the alter I knew that I had to go up there. I knew God said that this was for you. It was for me. Thanks for New Vision Ministry center in Louisville.
I know kow that I have a passion for young girls and teens in general to know that the choices that they do now could affect them forever. When I see young girls in this kind of emotional stress I see their pain, I feel it so strong. No matter how strong with think we are and how close we might feel that we dont have to read the bible or worship God or to be in his presence that isnt true. we must every day choose to love and be with him, we must choose it every day to take up the banner and run a marathon for his name sake.
No matter how great your relationship is with God it dosent matter. we must daily train ourselves and never stop. we have to take a look deep within and heal those hurting places in our hearts. we must admit our failures and our pains and give them to God.
Just give everything over to the lord and know that he is your only source of strength and that he only can be the one to heal all your pain and your inner most thoughts and struggles.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
The Unexpected
In dealing with the unexpected death of a dear friend and xco-worker. I found my self giving into my feelings of the purpose of life. I asked God what is the purpose of life if we all are going to die, and no one will remember us and people will continue on and no one will remember. I realized that I was going over in to deeper waters of a slight depression. But I started to change my attitude when I was reminded that our life is no about this physical body,its about what we do for jesus and what we give back to him for letting us live to the point that we are at. Without his mercy, love, and forgivenss we all would have parrished a long time ago. I am blessed to be alive and live for the amount of time that I have so far. I often think about the two miscarriages that I lost, my babies that I never got to physically hold, I think about how one of them was with me during a awesome mission trip to Mexico and how they got to feel Jesus moving through me and touching others. That was all they needed to know that they wanted to be with him forever. Wow I think about getting to heaven a meeting my babies for the first time, they will be there to great me and that is all the reconigition that I need for this earth. My welcome home party is what I like to call it.
Death is something that will come to all of us, some sooner than others, but God's plan for our lives is much bigger than we can ever imagine. You never know the people that you will touch just by your everday walk and talk with God.
So all in all, Jesus took it all and nothing I experience will ever comepare to his sacrific and that my feelings are not what motivates me. Its seeing my babies in heaven one day and getting others to see them with me. So whatever that cost will be I will serve his name. Jesus the name above all names.
Ok I am done, I could talk and preach, and teach all day.
Death is something that will come to all of us, some sooner than others, but God's plan for our lives is much bigger than we can ever imagine. You never know the people that you will touch just by your everday walk and talk with God.
So all in all, Jesus took it all and nothing I experience will ever comepare to his sacrific and that my feelings are not what motivates me. Its seeing my babies in heaven one day and getting others to see them with me. So whatever that cost will be I will serve his name. Jesus the name above all names.
Ok I am done, I could talk and preach, and teach all day.
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Who cares what others think, I will be what God has made me!
Some times I get down and out and feel just really like crap. Then I remember that I was made in the image of God and that when someone talks about me and or puts me down or is negative to me that they are being that way to God, since I was made in his image. If I do that to others I am also doing that to do God, so with that in mind I try to focus and remember that God made everyone for a reason and no matter what we may think or feel about them he has his reasons, By us being able to forgive wrongs that are done to us, can create such a sweet frangrance of love for that person who was the one that had done something is amazing. God's love is endless and is mercyful and knows no boundaries. One sin is that same as another, One thing that God taught me when I was in Mexico ministering at the prision out side of Ciudad Juarez, was that even though I was in the presence of gang members, murders, theifts, and sexual offenders and God knows whatever else. That their sins where no different in the eyes of God than mine. I found my self being able to see them as people and friends of God and men of God inside this prision. They were the most loving and forgiving people that I ever met. It was amazing to here the stories and testmonies of these men, God is really an awesome God and only he can forgive the way that he does. I hope that In my life with God's help I can be forgiving and mercyful as him. God Bless all and know that no matter what, God Forgives and loves you. Take care!
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