Thursday, April 24, 2008
Monday, February 25, 2008
Whatever I got to be God, I'll be for you.
This something that has come up in the last couple of days. No matter who says I cant do something when I feel God is telling me to do it. I wont listen, I dont care what people think about how I worship and praise God and what is acceptable and not acceptable. If God says worship me this way or I feel the need to get a little lively then I will. I want to praise and honor God with everything that is with in me, not just become part of the church pew or seats. We say we are different from regular churches or traditional churches, but we still condem in nicer more loving ways.
God whatever you want me to be, I'll be for you and no one else but you.
God whatever you want me to be, I'll be for you and no one else but you.
Friday, February 15, 2008
Can you Juggle?
I have asked my self this question in the last couple of weeks. I feel like I am juggling everything in my life. My kids, husband, friends, church, house hold chores, and entertainment. I am sure that there are many things I can name that I feel are on that list. I am forced to learn how to be a juggler. I must manage my time, money, and talents. It must be effective when I do it. I must do it with all my heart. I find my self wanting to do more with church and helping others. Its hard when you havent learned the best way to time management. Sometimes I think that God does want us to learn to take care of families with all our hearts first before we can be effective in leading and helping others. If we cant take care of our families or learn to love them for who they are then how can we be the most effective in helping others see the love of God in us. So I have been trying to master the love of my family, which I think means my husband and kids. Then outside that is the other part of the family. So i have to master being the best wife and mother before I can be anything else. I was told by someone that I have been mean lately. It hurt me because I dont think that at all. Its just I am soly focused on taking care of my husband and kids and I am learning how to be the most effective with that. So its hard to focuse on anything else right now, because I feel that is where God has brought me this last past year.
So how well are you juggling your life circumstances?
So how well are you juggling your life circumstances?
Friday, February 8, 2008
All Natural Birth Experience!
WOW! That's all I can say for having experienced my second living child all Naturalllllllll. Having one son who is now 4 and then suffering 2 miscarriages both under extreme stressful situations and never having a D&C for those 2. And feeling every painful moment of those miscarriages which pretty much was labor pains.
I was almost 38 weeks along with this one. I was getting so big and miserable and never got any sleep. I had been sick for a couple of weeks with coughes, congestion, runny noses, and eye gunk. I was so ready for this child to come and for us to meet him for the first time. But nothing was happening, not even one contraction. Definately getting fustrated and more and more tired. I had been like 2 CM for 5 weeks. I was just so ready.
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Well I read that eating Pineapple was a good way to start labor because it softens your cervix but it only works when you are pretty much ready to go. So i bought a big pineapple and ate it, it did give me some contractions but not labor, so I ate more pineapple the next day.
When I woke up on January 31st I had a pretty good contraction at 6am but no more followed for several minuites, probably like 30 to 40 min. As the day went on I went to Chick fil a like usual and then I walked around the mall once. I started to feel really tired and drained and just had no more energy. So I went home and by 11 am I started having the contractions about 15 min apart. Then a couple hours later it was like 10 min apart. They started to get more and more severe. But I knew that I didnt want to go in too early and sit all day in the hospital and wait and wait and wait. So I messaged my husband and let him know that they werent ending. I cleaned the house and did some chores, all the while contracting. Finally about 2:40pm I told my husband that I wanted him to come home because they werent stoping. So my parents came and picked up my older son(they lived 30 min away) So in the mean time from waitng till my husband came home, my dad getting my son, and us driving to the hospital it was like about 5:50pm. I walked from the car to the labor unit and was in extreme pain. The contractions had gotten so severe that I wanted to have meds. My mind was siked out but the pain and I just wanted to die. Well little did I know when the nurse checked me in the triage labor unit So was shocked to find that I was fully ready to deliver at any moment. The head was there and I was ready. Seemed like they all went into adrenaline mode and started rushing around and trying to get a room and such. When I was in the room It was 6 pm. They tried to start an IV like 4 times and finally got it on the 5 try. But by that time it was too late to get any meds at all. So when the Dr came in I was ready to push. To say the least there was no time to build up my pushing and I had to push with all I had from the get go. Craziness I tell ya. With in 5 hard pushes and feeling like I was in the world series or the super bowl fixing to make the winning touchdown or run. Everyone was encouraging and cheering me on. I grunted and probably made a couple of screams and finally the baby head was out, his sholders felt hugh and I didnt think I could push him out. But I did and he was 7 lb 7 ounces. Baby Boy. Ryder Francisco Garcia finally entered the world. It was over! and thank God the contractions were gone.
I have been told by my former marine husband that Pain is weakness leaving the body, but after that I just felt plain week. everyone thinks I am awesome but all I felt was tired and just wanted to sleep. But I did have the control over my body. So if you need meds, get them. If you think you want to do it natural then try it but leave the option for meds.
God made our bodys so awesome and that I can hardly believe that he lived inside me for Nine months. It just seems unbelieveable. God is good.
I was almost 38 weeks along with this one. I was getting so big and miserable and never got any sleep. I had been sick for a couple of weeks with coughes, congestion, runny noses, and eye gunk. I was so ready for this child to come and for us to meet him for the first time. But nothing was happening, not even one contraction. Definately getting fustrated and more and more tired. I had been like 2 CM for 5 weeks. I was just so ready.
2
Well I read that eating Pineapple was a good way to start labor because it softens your cervix but it only works when you are pretty much ready to go. So i bought a big pineapple and ate it, it did give me some contractions but not labor, so I ate more pineapple the next day.
When I woke up on January 31st I had a pretty good contraction at 6am but no more followed for several minuites, probably like 30 to 40 min. As the day went on I went to Chick fil a like usual and then I walked around the mall once. I started to feel really tired and drained and just had no more energy. So I went home and by 11 am I started having the contractions about 15 min apart. Then a couple hours later it was like 10 min apart. They started to get more and more severe. But I knew that I didnt want to go in too early and sit all day in the hospital and wait and wait and wait. So I messaged my husband and let him know that they werent ending. I cleaned the house and did some chores, all the while contracting. Finally about 2:40pm I told my husband that I wanted him to come home because they werent stoping. So my parents came and picked up my older son(they lived 30 min away) So in the mean time from waitng till my husband came home, my dad getting my son, and us driving to the hospital it was like about 5:50pm. I walked from the car to the labor unit and was in extreme pain. The contractions had gotten so severe that I wanted to have meds. My mind was siked out but the pain and I just wanted to die. Well little did I know when the nurse checked me in the triage labor unit So was shocked to find that I was fully ready to deliver at any moment. The head was there and I was ready. Seemed like they all went into adrenaline mode and started rushing around and trying to get a room and such. When I was in the room It was 6 pm. They tried to start an IV like 4 times and finally got it on the 5 try. But by that time it was too late to get any meds at all. So when the Dr came in I was ready to push. To say the least there was no time to build up my pushing and I had to push with all I had from the get go. Craziness I tell ya. With in 5 hard pushes and feeling like I was in the world series or the super bowl fixing to make the winning touchdown or run. Everyone was encouraging and cheering me on. I grunted and probably made a couple of screams and finally the baby head was out, his sholders felt hugh and I didnt think I could push him out. But I did and he was 7 lb 7 ounces. Baby Boy. Ryder Francisco Garcia finally entered the world. It was over! and thank God the contractions were gone.
I have been told by my former marine husband that Pain is weakness leaving the body, but after that I just felt plain week. everyone thinks I am awesome but all I felt was tired and just wanted to sleep. But I did have the control over my body. So if you need meds, get them. If you think you want to do it natural then try it but leave the option for meds.
God made our bodys so awesome and that I can hardly believe that he lived inside me for Nine months. It just seems unbelieveable. God is good.
Wednesday, January 16, 2008
1/16/2008 1 year Anniversary of CSX Train Derailment
Wow, its been a year since a CSX train derailed infront of my house carring several different types of Chemicals. 3 of which exploded and spilled out and burnt for several days. It left living in a hotel for several weeks, then an apartment for several months. We choose not to go back to the house because I was approx 6 weeks prego at the time and then I miscarred approx a week later. So we just decided that no matter what we did not want to go back to live there. It took 6 months for CSX to settle with us a come to agreement. But we finally settled and were done with the whole process. We choose not to take legal action because they would not have bought our house and we wanted it to be over so we could move on and not be bitter with everything that has happened to us. God took care of me and my 2 year old at the time. I had to leave my home carring my 2 year old while I prego approx over 4 acres of land to find rescue personnel. There was fall out falling from the sky all the while. When I took one last look of how my home looked it like my mind took a pict that I will never forget and will never go back to. We are now living in another house. Settled with the train co. and moving on. I am not approx 36 weeks and 4 days prego today, Glad my baby didnt come today, that would have been wierd.
We are sorry for the losses we have had but are anxiously awaiting arrival of our new baby boy. He has no name yet and it seems to be getting harder and harder to figure out one. but hopefully soon we will decide on one.
I am thankful to God who has brought me thus far. Mike and I are defiantely stronger in our marriage and family. We know that with God you can handle anything and that there is an end to all things which means there has to be a begining. So All in All God is so Good and knows what he is doing all the time. He is awesome for sure. Take care and God Bless!
We are sorry for the losses we have had but are anxiously awaiting arrival of our new baby boy. He has no name yet and it seems to be getting harder and harder to figure out one. but hopefully soon we will decide on one.
I am thankful to God who has brought me thus far. Mike and I are defiantely stronger in our marriage and family. We know that with God you can handle anything and that there is an end to all things which means there has to be a begining. So All in All God is so Good and knows what he is doing all the time. He is awesome for sure. Take care and God Bless!
Tuesday, December 4, 2007
Are you aware of others?
Are you aware of others?
This is a question that goes over and over inside my head. I toil with the idea that we should be aware of others and what is going on with everyone we meet. I have to say that I am not good at this at all. I get so consumed with every day life and worries that I forget to actually look at people that I meet as if I was looking at Jesus. As a Christian I think that is it our responsibility to look at others as if we were looking into the eyes of Jesus. How would we treat him if he were here? Well his lives in the faces of those who need our help. We will never know how many opportunities that we have missed to reach out to those who need us. Did you ever think that they could be angels put there by God to see if we would actually do what we say and love them? Just love them for them and their situation and not try to change but just offer the love of Jesus and let him do all the rest. I think we can get into this mentality that we are going to save all the lost hurting poor people but most of the people are sometimes more happy and content than we are.
I just want to serve and have asked God to create a desire that I can’t do anything else but show others the love of God. I want to help and serve and show others what real love is. I want them to know what it feels like to be in the shadow of his wings and know with out a doubt that he has everything in control. I want feed, cloth, serve, and whatever else helps to bring the love of Jesus to others.
I remember a specific time that my husband and I reached out to help this couple. I will never forget this. I was preparing for a missions trip to Mexico with some young teens. We were doing the typical fundraisers and trying to get everything together for the trip. It was a month or so before we were to leave and we still had some money to raise. I prayed that God would show me what to do about the funds.
One day I was leaving Wal-mart which is very typical for me since I am a stay at home mom and it seems there is always something I forgot to get. I remember seeing in the distance a man with a sign standing by his car. Sometimes you see homeless men asking for work or food, or sometimes people will sell animals in that particular spot. But before I knew or saw this sign I felt God speak to my heart and say I want you to give this guy some money. At the time I didn’t know how much. We I drove by I read the sign and it read we need money to make it home or something like that. I can’t remember the exact words. I was like ok, I wanted to revert to a conservative attitude and say they are probably just trying to get money for something else, they need to get a job etc etc. But I decided to call my husband and ask him how much I should give to these people. I told him about the situation and wanted him to say what he felt and he said go ahead and give the 20 dollars. So I went to the ATM because I use debit cards now and carry no cash. I said if this is for real then they will still be there when I get back. When I pulled up to where they were at, they were still there. I was a bit relieved because I wanted to what I felt God wanted me to do. When I pulled up the gentleman walked over and before I could get a word out he said God Bless you as I handed him the money. I was speechless because he did not know how much I gave him. He walked away and as he looked down to see what I gave him his face told the story and I was hit by uncontrollable crying as I drove away. I cried and cried for several minutes and I heard a still small voice say everything for your trip will be taken care. Well at the next car wash we had a donation that pretty much took care of what we needed for the trip and it was so awesome. God moved in such a way that took my breath away and I thought I was doing something good for someone but in turn they blessed me. I truly believe that when that gentleman said God Bless you it meant something because of the transfer of the Holy Spirit that happened. God is awesome.
Who knows what we have missed by being so consumed with things that don’t even matter in the big picture. Like busy little bees we fly about trying to gather all the things it takes to make this great honey, but we find that that we work are selves too hard and end not paying attention and squished like a bug.
Make a effort to be aware of others.
This is a question that goes over and over inside my head. I toil with the idea that we should be aware of others and what is going on with everyone we meet. I have to say that I am not good at this at all. I get so consumed with every day life and worries that I forget to actually look at people that I meet as if I was looking at Jesus. As a Christian I think that is it our responsibility to look at others as if we were looking into the eyes of Jesus. How would we treat him if he were here? Well his lives in the faces of those who need our help. We will never know how many opportunities that we have missed to reach out to those who need us. Did you ever think that they could be angels put there by God to see if we would actually do what we say and love them? Just love them for them and their situation and not try to change but just offer the love of Jesus and let him do all the rest. I think we can get into this mentality that we are going to save all the lost hurting poor people but most of the people are sometimes more happy and content than we are.
I just want to serve and have asked God to create a desire that I can’t do anything else but show others the love of God. I want to help and serve and show others what real love is. I want them to know what it feels like to be in the shadow of his wings and know with out a doubt that he has everything in control. I want feed, cloth, serve, and whatever else helps to bring the love of Jesus to others.
I remember a specific time that my husband and I reached out to help this couple. I will never forget this. I was preparing for a missions trip to Mexico with some young teens. We were doing the typical fundraisers and trying to get everything together for the trip. It was a month or so before we were to leave and we still had some money to raise. I prayed that God would show me what to do about the funds.
One day I was leaving Wal-mart which is very typical for me since I am a stay at home mom and it seems there is always something I forgot to get. I remember seeing in the distance a man with a sign standing by his car. Sometimes you see homeless men asking for work or food, or sometimes people will sell animals in that particular spot. But before I knew or saw this sign I felt God speak to my heart and say I want you to give this guy some money. At the time I didn’t know how much. We I drove by I read the sign and it read we need money to make it home or something like that. I can’t remember the exact words. I was like ok, I wanted to revert to a conservative attitude and say they are probably just trying to get money for something else, they need to get a job etc etc. But I decided to call my husband and ask him how much I should give to these people. I told him about the situation and wanted him to say what he felt and he said go ahead and give the 20 dollars. So I went to the ATM because I use debit cards now and carry no cash. I said if this is for real then they will still be there when I get back. When I pulled up to where they were at, they were still there. I was a bit relieved because I wanted to what I felt God wanted me to do. When I pulled up the gentleman walked over and before I could get a word out he said God Bless you as I handed him the money. I was speechless because he did not know how much I gave him. He walked away and as he looked down to see what I gave him his face told the story and I was hit by uncontrollable crying as I drove away. I cried and cried for several minutes and I heard a still small voice say everything for your trip will be taken care. Well at the next car wash we had a donation that pretty much took care of what we needed for the trip and it was so awesome. God moved in such a way that took my breath away and I thought I was doing something good for someone but in turn they blessed me. I truly believe that when that gentleman said God Bless you it meant something because of the transfer of the Holy Spirit that happened. God is awesome.
Who knows what we have missed by being so consumed with things that don’t even matter in the big picture. Like busy little bees we fly about trying to gather all the things it takes to make this great honey, but we find that that we work are selves too hard and end not paying attention and squished like a bug.
Make a effort to be aware of others.
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