In dealing with the unexpected death of a dear friend and xco-worker. I found my self giving into my feelings of the purpose of life. I asked God what is the purpose of life if we all are going to die, and no one will remember us and people will continue on and no one will remember. I realized that I was going over in to deeper waters of a slight depression. But I started to change my attitude when I was reminded that our life is no about this physical body,its about what we do for jesus and what we give back to him for letting us live to the point that we are at. Without his mercy, love, and forgivenss we all would have parrished a long time ago. I am blessed to be alive and live for the amount of time that I have so far. I often think about the two miscarriages that I lost, my babies that I never got to physically hold, I think about how one of them was with me during a awesome mission trip to Mexico and how they got to feel Jesus moving through me and touching others. That was all they needed to know that they wanted to be with him forever. Wow I think about getting to heaven a meeting my babies for the first time, they will be there to great me and that is all the reconigition that I need for this earth. My welcome home party is what I like to call it.
Death is something that will come to all of us, some sooner than others, but God's plan for our lives is much bigger than we can ever imagine. You never know the people that you will touch just by your everday walk and talk with God.
So all in all, Jesus took it all and nothing I experience will ever comepare to his sacrific and that my feelings are not what motivates me. Its seeing my babies in heaven one day and getting others to see them with me. So whatever that cost will be I will serve his name. Jesus the name above all names.
Ok I am done, I could talk and preach, and teach all day.
Tuesday, July 15, 2008
Tuesday, July 8, 2008
Wednesday, July 2, 2008
Who cares what others think, I will be what God has made me!
Some times I get down and out and feel just really like crap. Then I remember that I was made in the image of God and that when someone talks about me and or puts me down or is negative to me that they are being that way to God, since I was made in his image. If I do that to others I am also doing that to do God, so with that in mind I try to focus and remember that God made everyone for a reason and no matter what we may think or feel about them he has his reasons, By us being able to forgive wrongs that are done to us, can create such a sweet frangrance of love for that person who was the one that had done something is amazing. God's love is endless and is mercyful and knows no boundaries. One sin is that same as another, One thing that God taught me when I was in Mexico ministering at the prision out side of Ciudad Juarez, was that even though I was in the presence of gang members, murders, theifts, and sexual offenders and God knows whatever else. That their sins where no different in the eyes of God than mine. I found my self being able to see them as people and friends of God and men of God inside this prision. They were the most loving and forgiving people that I ever met. It was amazing to here the stories and testmonies of these men, God is really an awesome God and only he can forgive the way that he does. I hope that In my life with God's help I can be forgiving and mercyful as him. God Bless all and know that no matter what, God Forgives and loves you. Take care!
Thursday, June 12, 2008
The Boys!
Dominic at the Zoo, his favorite place.
Ryder going alone for the ride:)
Get this out of my face mom.
Brothers!
This is some good food, mushy though, but gooood.Whats been happening on this winedy road called life.
My husband and I have experienced a few ups and downs in the last couple of months. To say the least I think that God sometimes let us experience some trials to appreciate how much life is really a gift.
My Husband, Mike who I feel is one of the most active men I know. He is constantly working out or running several miles. He is actually working toward running in the Marine Corp Marathon in October of this year. So he can put down like 10 miles with no complaints. He ran the Derby Marathon here in Kentucky a couple of years ago and has wanted to run the Marine one in washington DC since he is a Former Marine. In preparing for that he has had a few road blocks in his training. A couple of weeks ago he went in for a routine check up and found that his Bilirubin levels where high, which could mean a lot of things. he went to a specialist and has his liver looked at over an ultrasound and did lots of blood test and come to find out it looks like he just has high bilirubin in his blood, which is called Gilberts syndrome. Nothing big but before we found that out I was a complete wreck, and worry came over me like a dark could, but I asked for prayer for some friends and found that it helped and lifted the dark could i called worry away.
Then everything was going good and my husband who has been working out and running and digging fence holes for a privacy fence we are installing, started having problems breathing in deep, that progressed worse to where he couldnt lay down or on his side and couldnt cough because it gave him so much pain. So we went to the ER, U of L Er which was the first time we had been there, it was actually kinda dirty place it seemed, but he was seen fairly quickyl and put on the heart montior and EKG to make sure that there where not heart issues going on. Well that turned out fine and come to find out his Chest X-ray showed that he might have a slight case of Pneumonia going on, so they gave him heavy anitbiotics to clear it up. So all his progress for training in the marathon was haulted and the fence was haulted and anything else that is heavy straining. BLahhhhhhhhh,
But with some prayers said Mike is definately improving and getting better and better, so hopefully he will start getting back to a routine again.
Ryder is already 4 month and a couple weeks old and is getting stronger and stronger. He is tall and growing.
Dominic is trying to be in everything wanting to learn and has figured out that he can play video games. He is learning and talking at a fast paced and wanting to soak everything in and even memecking our personalities, that is scary. So I am challenged to watch every little thing I do because he will sure copy it. Thats good motivation to change the yucky parts of me.
So next week we head to Arkansas to see my grandparents and doms first time in Arkansas, that will be interesting.
I guess that is all for now, one thing I do know is that God is so incontrol of everything and nothing goes unnoticed or unloved because he is there.
God Bless!
My Husband, Mike who I feel is one of the most active men I know. He is constantly working out or running several miles. He is actually working toward running in the Marine Corp Marathon in October of this year. So he can put down like 10 miles with no complaints. He ran the Derby Marathon here in Kentucky a couple of years ago and has wanted to run the Marine one in washington DC since he is a Former Marine. In preparing for that he has had a few road blocks in his training. A couple of weeks ago he went in for a routine check up and found that his Bilirubin levels where high, which could mean a lot of things. he went to a specialist and has his liver looked at over an ultrasound and did lots of blood test and come to find out it looks like he just has high bilirubin in his blood, which is called Gilberts syndrome. Nothing big but before we found that out I was a complete wreck, and worry came over me like a dark could, but I asked for prayer for some friends and found that it helped and lifted the dark could i called worry away.
Then everything was going good and my husband who has been working out and running and digging fence holes for a privacy fence we are installing, started having problems breathing in deep, that progressed worse to where he couldnt lay down or on his side and couldnt cough because it gave him so much pain. So we went to the ER, U of L Er which was the first time we had been there, it was actually kinda dirty place it seemed, but he was seen fairly quickyl and put on the heart montior and EKG to make sure that there where not heart issues going on. Well that turned out fine and come to find out his Chest X-ray showed that he might have a slight case of Pneumonia going on, so they gave him heavy anitbiotics to clear it up. So all his progress for training in the marathon was haulted and the fence was haulted and anything else that is heavy straining. BLahhhhhhhhh,
But with some prayers said Mike is definately improving and getting better and better, so hopefully he will start getting back to a routine again.
Ryder is already 4 month and a couple weeks old and is getting stronger and stronger. He is tall and growing.
Dominic is trying to be in everything wanting to learn and has figured out that he can play video games. He is learning and talking at a fast paced and wanting to soak everything in and even memecking our personalities, that is scary. So I am challenged to watch every little thing I do because he will sure copy it. Thats good motivation to change the yucky parts of me.
So next week we head to Arkansas to see my grandparents and doms first time in Arkansas, that will be interesting.
I guess that is all for now, one thing I do know is that God is so incontrol of everything and nothing goes unnoticed or unloved because he is there.
God Bless!
Mike being silly at a baby shower.
Dominic one day at the Zoo.
Grandpa with Baby Ryder Francisco Garcia(4 months old)
Dominic showing me where countries are on the map, probably pointing to the Philippines where uncle chris and Aunt Cathee, and cousin Samuel live.
Ryder doing what he does best, Smiling:)
Monday, May 19, 2008
God is Awesome!!
I find myself in constant remembrance that God is truly awesome and it shows in everything. In hanging with my 4 year old son almost everyday I have a new found love of nature and the tinyest of things. I have found a new love of earth worms, moths, wasps, birds, and pretty much anything that his little eyes can notice, which is everything. We cant walk a few steps with out him taking the time to smell the flowers and I mean smelling the flowers. I have found it relaxing to look through the eyes of a child once again. It shows that God did take the time to create a beautiful place that each animal and living creature has a place a purpose. even if those purposes are for annoyance or bothersome.
In the bible it talks about speaking as a child and I think that has come to mean to mean stop analyzing everything and take it for what it is. If it is a spider then its a spider.
Kids are awesome.
My hairless cat Ivy is also like a child and I find that I get on to her as much as my four year old. I look at her and learn that everyone needs to be loved even if they dont look or act like we may. Everyone was created in the image of God, I am talking about humans. Animals are important but Humans are much more important. They are the ones that have souls and are the hardest to love. Which is where God calls us to it to labors of love. Anyways thats all for now I can go on and on if I want to. GOD IS AWESOME!!
I find myself in constant remembrance that God is truly awesome and it shows in everything. In hanging with my 4 year old son almost everyday I have a new found love of nature and the tinyest of things. I have found a new love of earth worms, moths, wasps, birds, and pretty much anything that his little eyes can notice, which is everything. We cant walk a few steps with out him taking the time to smell the flowers and I mean smelling the flowers. I have found it relaxing to look through the eyes of a child once again. It shows that God did take the time to create a beautiful place that each animal and living creature has a place a purpose. even if those purposes are for annoyance or bothersome.
In the bible it talks about speaking as a child and I think that has come to mean to mean stop analyzing everything and take it for what it is. If it is a spider then its a spider.
Kids are awesome.
My hairless cat Ivy is also like a child and I find that I get on to her as much as my four year old. I look at her and learn that everyone needs to be loved even if they dont look or act like we may. Everyone was created in the image of God, I am talking about humans. Animals are important but Humans are much more important. They are the ones that have souls and are the hardest to love. Which is where God calls us to it to labors of love. Anyways thats all for now I can go on and on if I want to. GOD IS AWESOME!!
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