Seriously?

So there has been several things going through my mind and this is what is going to come out.  I feel that as christians we have to be accountable for every idle word, every idle thing we watch, every idle things we hear, I mean really?  Vampires run ramped through holly wood, just saying as every one always says. Just saying is a way to put it out there and just say it.  Dont kill the messenger.  I mean really?  what r we watching, what are we thinking.  I am definitely not perfect and not one to point or judge or anything like that, but as for me and My household we will serve the Lord and if that means, not doing certain things or watching certain things, then that is what it is going to take.  To strive to be like Jesus and not the world.  NOT the world.  I refuse to compromise my salvation or anointing or blessing so I can fit in or attract something that is not of God, Really what are we thinking?  God never had to use Satan to reach Satanist.  He just had to be Him.  If we want to be surrounded by people of faith and people of integrity then we need to attract those kind of people.  My Jesus is in comparable, there is NOTHing NO One that can COMPARE.  If we try and compare something to him then we are way out of line.  WAY out of it.  Im just saying. Are we willing to walk such a fine line that we compromise our own call, just as Saul did.  Are we willing to loose touch with the father and be distracted from what God is calling us to do?  Are we willing to be silent in a world that thrives off the weak.  Are government is set up to make the Christians disagree with each other so much that they become divided and become useless in the way of controversial issues.  If we agree to disagree and become unified then we become one step closer to being heard and to potentially saving millions of babies lives for just one example of what unity can do.  What does it cost to become so radical and sold out to Christ that our fellow Christians will mock and make fun of us.  I mean really why do we not fear the one who made us from the dust of the earth,  Who do we think we are to continue to not listen and do our own thing.  God will withdrawal his hand on the anointed and the called if we continue to mock, not listen, and do our own thing.  This is serious stuff Christians and if we don't listen up and become real and get down to the basics then we are going to fail miserably and its not going to be pretty.  It could even come down to our won destruction and death if we don't get real and become serious in the things of GOD.
Seriously What are we thinking?  Im just saying:)

Awaken!!

Awake at 3 am on a friday night and I need the sleep.  Got to be at church in less than a few hours, uggg this has to be God.   The more I try to sleep the less I can.  He is awaking me he is calling me to pray, fast, and seek his face.  I need to seek his face, with out his Guidance and with out his anointing everything will fail.  There is a stir, a burden, and plea from with in me that has to be let out. 

God only you are the creator, the devil didn't create me, so there for he has no power over me.  God I will stand for you, I will not let down,  I will pray and seek you in the midst of the dark hour.  You are my God.  I will not watch, listen, or speak nothing but the things of you.  You are my help, you are my strength, only you.

Your people, oh God, must awake and seek you and listen to what you are saying, these are the last days, these are the last moments in history, and we just live to only please our selves. We go on as if everything is ok when its not, we live with regret, hatred, selfishness, unforgiveness, and except God to still have the reign in our lives.  Which he cant because we have taken the power away from him by not giving our all to him.  We including every preacher, every christian, every person, no one is exempt from his word and his truth.

Divided we cannot and will not move forward, we have to come against our own flesh and feelings and allow God to reign in our lives and in our house.  We must not watch things that defile his name, we must be a holy people, or strive to be that, strive to take every little hindrance out of our lives.  We must be accountable in these last days because life is but a vapor and we are accountable to him.  I am awakened to pray that we don't miss the opportunity to reach the lost and dying world because we are so focused on pleasing our selves and not dealing with our own hearts that we forget how big our God is and that he sent his ONLY son to die for our sins that we might have life,  We are not owed salvation we fall short of the glory of God by leaps and bounds but it is by his grace that we are accepted by him,  We should extend that to those we hate, to those we don't speak to, to those who wont talk to, I mean these are the last days people and we are just sitting around and laying on the couch and expecting God to be there for us, He owes you nothing but  He GIVEs you forgiveness and love anyways.

Awaken and know that he is with your every thought, every decision, and sees that dark place in your heart that you hide.  He see you and hears you.  Awaken oh sleeping hearts, bring back your passion for the lost, bring back your church of Christians who fear you and seek to see your glorious face.  Awaken!!!!!! Before its too late and histroy is written and there is not more to write!  AWAKEN!!!!!!!!!!

What is your Hinderance?

Its time that we wake up out of our spiritual slumber as I have mentioned before in a blog, and see what God is telling us.  He is wanting us to clean our hearts from everything malice thing that isn't from him.  He wants us to know that we only need him to survive.  Everything else will pass away but our eternities are eternal and I want to take everyone I possible can with me.

He is wanting us to open our hearts and say clean me oh God so that I can be used by you.  He wants us to know that we have to put and take every hindrance out of our way and clean it up, so we can be the most effective we can be.

We constantly struggle with our finances, attitudes, situations, friends, etc etc the list can go on and on.  He is saying don't you know that I am here with you.  SEEK my face first and I will SUPPLY all your needs. We tend to forget who our supplier is.  Yes we have to do the work and not be lazy but we also have to do the work with out complaint or strife in our own hearts.  We are not owed anything in life.  We owe him.  Its about seeking his face on a daily basis and then going and doing or helping his word out.  Whether we help an old lady across the street or whether we go and serve at our local church.  Its about our motives, we have to do it unto God and remember that we are not to seek mans approval but Gods.  It doesn't matter if you don't get recognition or if you are OWED it because of all the great and wonderful things you have accomplished or done.  Jesus payed the ultimate price and we think we don't have to give or owe him anything.

Who are we living for?  What is your purpose?  What are your motives?  Where do you want to GO?  Are u tired of living in what your living in?  Then seek his face and he will guide you, clean out the junk drawers of your heart and get rid of what holds you back.  If you cant pay your bills then look at see what is your hindrance, are you bitter, do u have unforgivness, These can keep you from your destiny.  Let go and fall into the arms of God,  Its ok to be wrong its ok to fail its ok to say I messed up, we have to be broken in order to be fixed and we are truly all not perfect and not totally fixed.

Ask him to search you and find what is your hindrance?

Only seen by the father!

I truly don't understand a lot of things.  For example why people are so just unaware of how the things they say, tweet, write, email, blab, etc can really hurt or destroy someones passion.

Don't we realize that half of the things we say think or speak really doesn't matter.  I mean come on its a fact that people retain more of what the see than hear.  So in knowing that the negative almost always out weighs the positive then that means the negative things we say, will be the very things that are remembered.  Wow that is really scary to think about.

I am being lead back to a place where listening to the things of this world is way too much to bear.  We have got to get to a place where we can stand on our own 2 feet and Listen to what God (Not Man) is telling us to do.  Notice I said LISTEN and NOT Speak.

Now what God wants and what we want are most of the time 2 totally different things.  (Usually that is how it is with me).  I am not the best mime, singer, dancer, mother, wife, etc etc but I want to be what God is telling me to be.  I only need to listen to his voice and tune everything else out.  I need to have tunnel vision for Jesus and THAT IS IT.  People will lead you in the wrong direction, but God will always steer you in the right direction.  This is a season where we have to stand a say no matter what anyone else says, I will do what God is telling me to do.  I cant not wait any longer, I cannot linger any longer I must take that step of no going back and enlarge my box so it can be filled even more.  Enlarge our territories, expand our borders and boundaries.  We are only bound by our own chains, we put them on our selves.  Let us break the chains off our selves and step into a new place, a higher place, a more wonderful place.

I realize that I am called to be in the back, never to be seen, always hidden, this has been said many times, (something I already knew, of course) I fight this so much because I am human:)  God is calling me higher, he is calling me above what I am now.  He is calling me to serve, worship, adore, and praise his name, not matter how silly, ridiculous it seems that is what I am suppose to do.

He is the one who gave me life, he created my soul, he died for me.  I may not have this big testimony, done all these great things, but I know that he died for me!! The girl that is called to sit in the corner, never to be seen but by only the father. I am only his, his precious gift, his special prize. That is me.

I don't say that looking for pity, but I say it in encouragement that God calls us to certain places because he knows what is going to expand our horizons, he doesn't want you to always stay in the same place or situation, he wants you to grow with him while you are following his will for your life.

I know how to follow and I know how to lead, but that dosent mean I will always be a leader or a follower, There is a time a season for everything and what u choose to listen to, follow is ultimatley up to you.  But Just know that God is there waiting for you to say Ok Im here and my ears are open to listen!

Please land your plane!

In the depths of my mind this is what I have found and this is what I am sure needs to be said even if I am not heard. 

"O, people of this world, do u not see that I am here with you, do you not see that I am for you, do you not see that I am right here.  Stop running around to and fro looking for me, I am right here.  You can have me, all of me.  Do you not see me.  I am waving you in and you fly right by me.  Why do you not see me?  I want you to land your plane and let me take hold of what I have planned for you.  You are so precious and you are everything I want.  Please know I am here and I am waiting for you to come to me. Please see me, I am desperate for you to see me.  Please understand that I see the future of the path of self destruction you are taking and I can also see the future of the marvelous path I have for you. Please choose to see me, I will wait for you, I will stand, jump, and shout till I get your attention. I am here."

It just seems today that we are living in a world that continues to ignore God.  He is right there for us and we just run here to here this preacher or that one.  Or to get a word here or there.  But we have the main line to God.  We dont need someone to tell us anything that arnt already in us just waiting for confirmations.  We dont understand that we can revivals in our own living rooms if we would just press in and seek his face.  Yes getting together and having those special times are great but knowing that we have him all the time.  We take control and need to stand firm in our faith and know that we have the choice whether to walk in his presence or walk alone.  Its our choice.  He dosent hide in a closet or in a specific church building he lives if you TRULY let him, he LIVES in us.  Quite searching for God and take a moment to stop and say, you are right here in front of me God I see you you are here.  

So here is goes and watch out!!!

This is going to be one short blog!!!


What you do on this Earth right now,  will it ring through out eternity or will it just fade away???

The choices u make matter, they matter!!!  God is watching you and he sees what you put before him in your alone time.  He sees your heart and he knows your every thoughts.

What do your secret thoughts say about you?  What does that deepest most hidden part of your heart say about you? 

Are you willing to stand with God and not deny him when things don't go the way U think they should? 

Lets stop putting our thoughts into things and let God put his thoughts into them, and see where he will take you!!!!!


Start truly living and stop being a robot to the world.  Be different set apart in your thoughts for this is his desire is that you stand firm and ride on the wings of his eagles.!!!

Choas

Ok so this I have been thinking about for many days now.  What to write in my next blog.  I have started to write some then I just didnt feel like I should publish them so I would just erase them.  I have learned it is best to not write or to speak when you are at a point of dis pare, frustration, anger, etc.  because what is sure to follow is something that is not Godly or out of the creators vocab.  At this point in my life I dont care what you think of me because I know that serving God is my main purpose before anything else. I just want to do his will.

So many things have happened the last couple months with our church and in my life that its Choas.  Thus the title of the blog.  It seems like I am mentally, physically, and just plain tired.  In that I have to realize that my mind has to be in the right place before anything will get accomplished.  I have to continue to persue God and read the bible and continually pray.  In not doing those things will I become useless in his kingdom. 

I encourage those who are weary in well doing to take a time out for God and to get back to the basics and remember he is our only source of strength.

Those who havent stepped up to help further the kingdom of God, I encourage you to take that step you have been waiting for now.  Get up off your couch of complacency and wake up and do he will. Start getting involved somewhere in the church.  There are so many places that despiratley need ministers to serve for Example the Nursery needs workers,(had to plug that one in since I am the Nursery Director,lol) Not just in the nursery, the children's ministries, alter teams, cleaning crews, greeters, security, parking, then list goes on and on.  There is a NEED for laborers in the house of God, no matter what church you go to they NEED you.

I am not sure why people stand back and watch the world go by BUT I for one want to make sure that when I pass this earth that I have done all that I could to further God's purpose.  Not my purpose but his.

I think that we are selfish and we continually ask why doesn't this person say hi to me, or why dont they notice me, or why dosent the church love me: seems like we are the ones with the problem not the church.  We are so worried about the tiny spec in someone's eye that we fail to see the big moat or thorn that we have in our own eyes.  Meaning we tend to look at everyone faults and not our own, which if we worked on our own faults first then we wouldn't have to worry about looking for any ones elses because we would be too busy with our own.

Why are we so judgmental on everything but our selves, do the rules apply to everyone else but not ourself?  Man this stuff is some good stuff.

We must renew our minds all the time in order to be in the will of God.  We must understand that we must be willing to accept people for who they are even if they hurt us or offended us.  We must realize that life sucks sometimes but its how we handle those moments that shows others what we are made of.

Renew our minds people and get right with the father so we can shine the light of Jesus to this lost and dying world.